fruit loops.

Hugs &kisses.

2010-09-19T06:12:00.001+08:00

I have no life right now but to miss my close ones. The frst thing when I meet you, I'll crush your face. &then hug you tightly. Please know I miss you terribly. &I is dying to meet you. :'(

I'm sorry. Xoxo.

A goodbye makes the next hello closer.

2010-09-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

Second raya hasn't been good. Been sensitive. Crying now &then. Crying not due to asking for forgiven part, but crying due to the sucky situation I'm in. How I wish these leg doesn't happen. But nvrtheless, I'm thankful Mummy has always been by my side, coaxing me every now &then, for understanding my feelings. Thankyou, but I'm sorry for making everything bad. Besides Mummy, thankyou to my lovely cousins &most of them from Mummy's side, friends I have like Firman, Mandol &of course my new boybestf. Thankyou(s).

I guess now I have a new boybestf! Sayang Stonerrr. Hehh. The boybestf I used to have since Secondary 2 crushed me right in the face, after knowing he's been ganging up with the frenemy, the pukilonggar. Bayek punyaaaa. He became part of the clan with her going around bad-mouthing me. But ohwell, I'm not in the losing end. It just proves to me how much he doesn't deserve my friendship.

Patience is virtue. Xoxo.

When all's at the bottom.

2010-09-09T05:59:00.003+08:00

This year, I'm not feeling the atmosphere for raya. Really. No walks to Geylang, no iftars, no shopping for new clothes &heels, no whatsnot. I'm stuck at home for the whole month thanks to the injury. I just realised that I got into the accident, on the 17th last month, &I'm still not well yet. It's been long, yes? I miss walking, I miss going out, I miss my friends, I miss working, I miss getting all ready to get out of the house, I miss partying. I. Miss. Wearing. Footwears. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ALL THESE THINGS WITH THIS FOOT, WHICH CANNOT EVEN TOUCH THE GROUND?!

Yes, I'm able to walk, but with the help of crutches only. Idw the outside world to see me with crutches. I've got 2 more UTs next week. What's worst is, my MC ends on the 12. So, I'd need to extend my MC for LOA. But I guess it's of no use also, when one of my UT isn't complied with the LOA. &OH. I doubt I'll be raya-ing. I don't want to be in my baju kebaya, my crutches &one side of the slipper only. Wtf, might as well stay at home right?!

Fuckkkk. I really want to start walking. :'( I can't do this anymore. Boleh nangisssss. Pecah otak! Urghh.

On the brink, surprisingly. Xoxo.

Forever is a lie, so everything is temporary.

2010-09-06T04:59:00.005+08:00

I haven't been at my peak lately. Ever since the accident, I haven't been smiling that often. Infact, I'm turning into someone else. Weaker, that is. Really. Being sensitive over some stupid small issue. Being a crybaby at almost every single thing. Even my doctor remembers me as his favourite shouting patient.

Doc: Okay, today I need you to promise me to endure the pain no matter what. I rmb you, you're very scared of needle &pain. Even though you've got a piercing. Tsktsk.

Sesungguhnya, part piercing not needed horrrr! Where can like that?! Must compromise laa! You want me to promise, but you make me sound like a contradicting loser. TSK. Bayek doc! Wa sudah tau punyaaaa.

Hopefully, the previous admission will be the last. Really. I'm sick &tired of staying in the hospital. If free, like resort nvm know! Grrr. But whatever it is, my best stay was on the previous Saturday. Suka sangatttttt. Acit, Joy &Sharin visited me. &it was the only stay that I was able to get out of the ward by myself. Hehh. :D

&to add on to it, Blair stayed the night with me. &I had a webcamming session with my twin! It's been so long since I saw that face. Really, rindu sangattttttt. Ohwell, for most of the RP-ians, they're having UT in about few more hours &here I am ranting &not studying &not sleeping. Reason being, I'm on LOA. Yayy. But the bad news is, I'm not able to meet my grlfs! Sheeeesh. :(

I'm back from meeting the boys at my voiddeck. This shall be the last I see of Acit. Period. Soon, he'll be serving the nation. &tomorrow, I mean later at night, I'll be meeting Thaqif. Die die, I'll force him to meet me as well. Since it'll be his last hours too. Cheyy, I sound so sad like as if I won't be meeting them forever like that. Tsk! This shall be the disadvantage of having too many boyfriends &very handful of grlfs staying near me. Tsk.

You're at the back of my mind. Xoxo.

I'll be able to pull through.

2010-09-04T19:42:00.002+08:00

I just got myself discharged from my hospital stay for the second time. Yes, the second time for my wound at the heel. Everyone's asking on the reason behind the second admission. Well, reason being, it got infected. Yeh yeh, go on &laugh. Idk if it's me in the wrong or the doctor lehh. But nevertheless, I ain't going to smoke. Period. Not until my wound is healed. Hehh.

Now everyone might say I is kaysiao for blaming the doctor. But right from the start, I saw pus on the wound, &he confidently said it wasn't. Until a week later when I came for checkup, he claimed it's my fault for not keeping the wound clean. Tsk! It's his profession, so he knew it best right? So, yeh. Maybe it's mine. But tell me how am I suppose to keep it clean, when there's maceration forever?! Urghhh. &it's forever weeping. How to make it dry in the frst place right?

So I ended up spending half of the month in the hospital. How great. Great when I'm missing everyone. Really, -.-! But nvm, this just proves how sweet my friends are, some that is. Hehh.

&yes, I'm missing babygie, like alooooooot. On a not so pink note, this was the last time since I met her. As in, last on the outing. Besides the fact that she came down with Harun just to visit me. But on a lovely pink note, guess what?! It's exactly a year since I've known this grl. &I've never regret it. Let's just hope it'll last. Tomorrow's Sunday, &usually, it means a date with her. But lately, Sundays never mean anything to me. :(

Mmkay, so anyway. I had a blast on this very date. Surprisingly, I wasn't late in waking up like always. Hehh. Met up earlier since babygie's going to be alone. &I ended up treating the lady Fish &Co., as a belated brthday treat. Of course I'd feel bad for not able to spend my time with her for her brthday. &because of that, Acit had been brooding over the fact that I should have waited for him &treat him as well. Sheeeesh. That boy sure tak tau malu oneeeee!

This is another surprise. I didn't really think I'd be close to this asshole here. I remembered knowing him after my frst accident when Firman visited me. &he literally described himself as to what he wore on Firman's pit last year. Sesungguhnya, I got STM. How on Earth would I remember right?! Main kaysiao this one. -.-, sheeeesh. Ever since then, we got close &he always tell me about his love life with this very grl. &I'll always tell him what has been bothering me, especially Mat's case. He's the second boy after boybestf who I really opened up to.

Well, Acit's serving the nation soon. Together with Thaqif &Wan. &soon, the other boys too will be going in. &I'll have only handful of them to meet up with. Nvm, at least this confinement I'm having at home is making me learn not to miss the boys so much. Bet they're all outside enjoying &I'm only at home, in the process of recovering. FML, really.

Speaking of boybestf, it makes me think, that it's not worth missing him. He's out there with the other past friends, helping this frenemy, making her feel better, by bitching about me. What a bestf right? It's sad to realise it, really. But ohwells, this just add on to another lesson of mine. The boys I have now is what I'm thankful of. Having them past friends didn't help me with anything in life. They bring out the worst in me, in fact. So long, motherfs.

Sesungguhnya, I wish I'd just recover in a day, so I'd be able to go out &meet these boys &join in the fun. But let's look on the bright side. There's a few factor that rules out. Mummy &sissies are busy spring cleaning the whole house &I'm at home, resting my ass off. Good not? Hahaha. &&everyone's studying last minute for their UTs when I'm at home, resting &of course, not studying. Of course, LOA mahh. Hehh.

P/S: He is happily attached now, so I guess, this just marks the time to move on. Let's go!

Getting the hang of it. Xoxo.

I was wrong to think caution &you don't go well together.

2010-08-30T06:15:00.009+08:00

I'm on the brink already. But I'm going to take a breather &not take any considerations into the matter which will be affecting me. &OH, I bet some elephant's-faeces-faced will think this is for them. Afterall, a stalker will always be a stalker, yes? A favourite one, that is. Sorry, but I ain't got much time like you even though I've been cooping at home &gets bored most of the time. It's a pity the number of times my name gets out of your trap is waaaaaay inproportionate to the number of time your name gets out of that filthy thing. It's okay, I get that alot anw. Don't be shy to not ask about it k? -.-, hahaha.

Kno, that's not the point. That aside. There's just something I hate about myself. Itchy fingers. No wait, it started by watching The Hills. &seeing A &J together just makes me miss you. &these itchy fingers of mine just made its own ways to linger on your wall. Usually, lingering just makes me miss you. Fullstop. But this time, it's big time. But I'm dead sure, this will be the last. The next time this fingers get to you, I'm so over you.

I think I know how Audrina feels. Justin was having fun without A. &it just proves to A, that her life doesn't revolve around J. So, A made up her mind to get her own fun &starts having a crush on Brody. &I've made up my mind that I'm going to be as strong as A.

Sidetracked. But jsyk, it's that very same thing you do with her which makes her miss you alot that once made me happy too. Watching you doodle with Lea, &getting yourself mad at Angry Birds. Spending time at the end of the date just the two of us without the presence of your friends even if it means falling asleep on each other's lap. When you ride like one asshole, making me yell till your friends laugh at me. When you grabbed my hand to wrap around you, especially when you ride. When your jokes didn't get to me &we ended up laughing at our own silliness. When you'd call me just because you wanted to accompany me just so I could sleep even after you had a long night out with your friends.

Yes, these were the reasons why I couldn't get over you. I get happy at small little things, which will make me feel appreciated. &you did for that night. So the next time if Firman were to doubt why I couldn't let go, I'll just ask him to read it here.

Oh yesss. FYI, some friend of mine have been doubting about the reasons why. But sad to say, it always disappoint him. &at times, it hurts to hear your own friends not believing your words when it comes to these kind of sensitive issue, even though you know he's just joking around. But to be honest, it hurts even more when there's some rumour coming out from some filthy big trap. Well, at least, I told him it hurts.

For what I know, any of you can go around &make up story about it. But it's me, my life which I'm dealing with. It's your trap, Idgaf. At the end of the day, you're the one doing sins, not me. So very well, go on. Got parents also no use. Never teach the child properly. Tsktsk. At least even though I only have a mother, Mummy educated me on not making rumours about people. It got me thinking having three parental guidance is of no use. Tsktsk. Senang cakap, world sama lu k.

I just wish these boys or some of my grls were around to console me, especially Acit or Rozzy. But sadly to say, I don't wish to bother them at these hour. I just need someone to tell me he's not worth it. You know it's funny how we can easily advice our friends, but when it comes to us, it's just so hard for us to swallow our own advices when fact is, at the end of it, it'll also help us around.

Anw, enough on getting upset. I went for Acit's pit on the 31st July. At least I think the secretary did a great job. Of course yours sincerely laa. Sheeeesh. But it kind of got cocked up with the money issue not being collected on time. But thankfully, it went successfully.

&I swear I've got to thank Black for nearly getting me into another accident. Bayekkkkk. But I was fine, no harm. But he got so paranoid that he parked his bike far awayyyyy from the others &I had to walked looooooooong miles with him to get to Acit's pit. I kind of had to put up with the boredom by coming early. But Siti came to the rescue! After which, the other boys came.

&what happened with all the other boys around? Chaos. One thing for sure, I think I was a party crasher. Frstly, I was down with flu for the whole week. Never ending knowww, like tap water! But pandang member nya psl, I came down. Next thing I know, everyone's tripping &I was gone the third. But I woke up the last. Adoiiiii. Pecah rabak derrrrr.

&OHH, since Issy Jizzy requested, I had to act to be his grlf for that night. Due to some unseen circumstances. But he was just afraid he might lead on this grl. Too bad for him, all of us were happily busy teasing him. Hahaha.

These boys woke me up because it started to pour &they wanted to bring the tent under the shelter. With the heavy downpour, everyone settled in the tent. 10 men in a 6 men tent. RABAK DOKKKKK. Lagi laa chaos with Acit &his never ending blabbering, Firman's horny business. Omg, looking at the picture just made me giggled all to myself. Sheeeesh.

&&OHHH. I kept on having the urge to go to the toilet that night. To wee-wee of course. What else would you do in the toilet besides finishing up your business right? Oh rightttt, some I know of fucks in the cubicle after getting drunk. HAHAHAHA. Epic! I could be the grl_toilet for frequently having the urge to wee-wee. But I'd still give that creature the flaming torch for being the grl_toilet. Classic.

This shall be the most memorable event with them. I never thought by befriending Anep, Alep, Shahrul &Meimei, I'd end up being close with these other people. Soon, most of them would vanish since they've got to serve the nation. &I'd be all alone. But nvm, there's still a few for me to look up with.

These scars tell a story. Xoxo.

Once bitten, twice shy.

2010-08-28T06:43:00.002+08:00

This time, the promise I made, is to myself. &not to any others. So to those who just won't believe me, go &die. Hahaha. K no, just wait k. Y'all don't believe that one your pasal. The note-to-self(s) I had for myself works, no doubt. I no longer get emotional at every single thing.

Maybe cooping myself at home makes me so bored that I talk crap aloooooot. &can just talk cock with anyone. Vampire Diaries vs Prisonbreak with Paan. Apa ckpppp. Adoiii. Very nonsense k. Or maybeeee, just maybe, I'm getting a grip with looking at the brightside. Mummy said everything happened for a reason.

Still, the pain I'm having now sucks big time laa! Everytime the boys go out, they won't even tell me about it. When will it be the only time I get to see them? Usually, after midnight, when they'll come down just to meet me. But the only ones who'll meet me are just handful. Like Qif, Wan, Firman. It's not that I'm not saying that they're not sweet, but thanks to the pain, I'm missing out on the fun they have as a group.

It's this very pain that I felt that makes me feel bad for not being able to meet babygie that much either. She ended up coming down to Jurong just to meet me instead. The days we didn't meet just because I want to get more buckaroos aren't worth it. I'm sorry. I'll cover it up soon, when I'm well, that is.

&yes, many asked on my well-being. But Idk if I'm getting better or not. Maybe I'm just getting used to the pain. But at least, on a pink note, the foot no longer swell. But the maceration is still a problem. The wound is still bleeding. Mummy said, it's due to the bone that got cracked or chipped off. I'm not sure which one, but it has got to be either one.

Eh shucks. I just mentioned about looking on the brightside. I think I got too carried away. =/ But nvm, at the very least, this pain made me realise something. &I'm glad it's because of this pain I get to catch things up with my twin. If not, there won't be any time for me to do likewise with Rozzy for the fact that I'm always not at home or in school.

&&OHH. I didn't realise that I've shed some pounds until babygie told me so. &after Firman agreeing on it big time. Me likeyyy. Yayy, dah kurus. Bagus. No longer fatty-fatty bomb-bomb. Hehhh. Idk if it's because of the fasting month or not. But what I know of is, I crave for so many things. But I lose the appetite fast. &I get full easily. Plussss, I only eat once a day. Given the fact that I'm still sick, I think I'm being at a disadvantage. But Idgaf. Hehhh.

Let's just put it as a stepping stone. Xoxo.

I wish, I wish, I knew right from the start.

2010-08-25T07:32:00.000+08:00

It's been long since I've been here. &since I have to coop myself at home, I might as well finish up on this last update which was due loooooooong ago. Procrastinator, I know. But that wasn't the only reason. I need a place where I can shove everything off my shoulders. So where's the best place I'd naturally turn to? Here of course.

This was somewhere in the beginning of July. My last trip for partying. Period. I thought it's been 2 months plus since I've stepped foot onto the dancefloor. But no, it's only been a month. 2 more weeks &it'll be 2 months. Whoa, &I thought time flies. But no. Oh yes, if you have all forgotten, or rather, I've forgotten to imply it here, the reason I've been enduring the temptation to party is because I wanted to save up for Barbie. &I tell youuuu, the temptation was hard But anything for Barbie know.

I used to get irritated when people ask if I'm going for the certain event over at Zouk. But since I've made the promise, I get irritated when people ask what happened because they've not seen me partying for so long. Mana tak makin bertambah temptation nak masuk?! TSK. &I do not deny that I miss partying. I might just get back to the old times. We shall see.

As for now, I'd need to focus on getting well frst. Be fully recovered. Fast. This time, the wound is taking a longer time to heal &what's worse is that I'm at my downpeak now. For I've lose most of my self esteem &I get emotional or sensitive every now &then.

But alot said look at the bright side. I see no Mr Brightside though. But I do know who were the ones who were concerned about me. Dear wound, will you be nice &heal faster? I miss alot of people nowwww. :( I've made a promise to meet alot of them once I'm well.

By now, I believe I do not need to tell about my mishap down here. Right? My closest friends obviously knew about it frst hand, or maybe second. Haha. Some whom I'm not close to &even the frenemies I have, already knew about it. &obviously, it's no surprise that some were just elated for this mishap of mine. But wtv. Let them enjoy for now. Life's a slut, but they just have not met the sister. You know the thing where it's like you throw a ball against the wall kind of thing. Yesyes, neverending. Seven temples pe. Haha.

I have been at my downpeak. Reason being, I miss M. I still remember, the period after my frst accident where I had to coop myself at home (like right now). You telling me you had an inside info about how I got into an accident. But fact was, you heard it from a friend of yours who is friends with mine. It's that very moment where we connected even closer after 3 months. It's that very moment where you distracted me from the pain &never fails to make me smile. It's that very moment where you made a point to me you're different. You had me at that period onwards.

But no, I'm still going to stand strong. &you obviously don't deserve any of this. So fuck off k. &yess, I just said fuck. Sesungguhnya I tak puasa. So gi mampos dgn kau. You're one lost kid in life. You'd only be continuing to owe people some buckaroos with way higher maintenance bike.

Enough about M. This period of time is exactly the same as the one after my frst accident. I hope it won't be same as knowing you. Let's just go with the flow. I ain't rushing. I know this just ain't my time. But I'm getting over you, that's for sure.

As of right now, I'll have to stay up awake. &wait for Qif to arrive. Hopefully he doesn't sleep. &OHHH. I is being a kind soul to help him.

Now who's got a candle? Xoxo.

Because you brighten my life and fill it with joy.

2010-07-27T04:51:00.005+08:00

Happy brthday babygie!

I may not be the frst one to wish you. (Note: Because I'm up all night to grab all the previous frames we had from all our outing together.) But who knows this might be the best one, yes? Haha.

&I remembered clearly the frst time we met, dated 4th September. No talk. The bad impression I had of you way before, grew even more deeper. I wanted to laugh at you so badly for losing your phone, but I is nice as usual, especially when you're crying. Hahaha. Trust me, I still remember vividly the conversation we had in the bus during the raya outing when you told me Meimei practically said we're almost the same. &thanks to the bitching about your "sister", we got even more close. &I'm sorry if I made you cry when I had to be admitted.

I never want to lose you ever again. The frst time was enough. Whatever happens to you with the boys, promise you won't make history repeat itself again. (which is to leave the boys &inc me.) :( &baby, whatever decisions you make, you know I'll always be around to catch you when you fall. Just like how you're always around me when I need someone to confide in. Thankyou. You're my idol when it comes to becoming stronger emotionally, not being a weak target. &one day, I know I'll learn to be just like you. You're my motivation in getting Barbie fast. By then I promise you, we can always have more Sundays by ourself &not worry on how to get back home.

This nearly 1 year friendship means alot. We drift, we argued, we bitched. I used to say I can never click with Malay grls. But you (&some others) are exceptional. &as the number grows, boys we knew commonly can never be the main issue. Thankyou for entering my life. To the world you may be one person, but to me you're my babygie, grlf, sister, bestf. Forever is a lie. But trust me, it feels like I've known you since forever &I know you know we both want things to go on this way.

Enjoy your frst day of 365 days of journey around The Sun. Xoxo.

When enough isn't enough.

2010-07-26T07:19:00.001+08:00

I hate staying at home, especially when it requires the skill of tolerating a fat pig at home who eats whatsoever she wants &never leave some for me or Mummy. She practically thinks that the food that Mummy bought or cook is mostly for her. Apparently she thinks Mummy thinks likewise by the look at her unfigurely body.

Let's scratch out my previous tweet when I said I miss this runaway creature. Because when she's home, it can never be peace for me. Likely to always have WW3 soon. I'll kick off the profanities when it comes to her, else she'll be a crybaby complaining things to the paternal's side. Omg, such a loser, yes?

&what other things can this creature do besides pissing me off? The question below is commonly heard by me ever since I've started working as a Pizza Hut rider. Mmg arrrr, my face got the cap pizza. &this will be the only time when she'll be talking to me in a very soft graciously irritating manner which will always be a turnoff because that's the only tone she'll use when she need something from me.

Adek, nnti bwk balik pizza k?

Kalau laa dia ada kwn nama Amir, I'd obviously say "AR MEH ISAP". -.-, keciput yknowwww!

Seeing the brothers work together at work, it makes greater wonder to me why I can never get along with this fat runaway creature. Which is why I'll always smile to myself if Sufi always reply me when I say "Bye abang" so manjaly. Hehhh.

On the most pink lightest note, this was on the 4th, if I'm not mistaken. Again, such a short meetup. Because apparently, both Qif &I slept like a pig. Hahaha. Went out &met babygie in town once the boys were done with their Bikers Idol event. &we were undecisive on movie or sheesha. But we settled with Eclipse though. I swear there were too much of kissing scenes. I feel like smacking Bella's face yknowwww.

This was also the last I've met them boys. &apparently, being part &parcel of life, goodbyes will always be around. &thanks to goodbyes, Qif is being totally too sensitive &dragged me in after whatever unseen issues he had with babygie. So that being said, that was the last I met him. As for the other one, no comments given pls.

But after a 2-3 weeks of not meeting up, I finally met up with babygie ytd. More on that soon. As for now, I should just head to bed because I just realised I have a hospital appointment later, so I can't head down to school. So much for gathering up my motivation. TSK!

I wish you luck on happiness, now wishing me to forget you will do just fine. Xoxo.

Life's a game that never fails to cheat.

2010-07-20T11:11:00.000+08:00

I'm done wondering to myself why I've got haters. These creatures are just trying to bring my life down. &too bad for them, I ain't falling, I ain't one of the weaklings anymore. This time, you've got the wrong person to mess around with. Afterall, this is just part &parcel of life ysee. &Mummy's right. I can't please everyone in the whole world. &you creatures can say whatever you want, judge as much as you want. Because you're only judging by what I chose to show.

This was 3 weeks ago. Yay, the queen of procrastinator is getting back on track. No more procrastinating like alottttt. Especially on this site. So yeh, the initial plan cocked up. Thanks to me for being a sleeping beauty. Heh. But babygie is used to it already. Especially when I was partying the night before. But I wasn't the only one who were up lateeee! Qif was even later k! Irrzxzx.

That was the shortest meetup amongst all, I swear. Jalan Kayu, then to Waterfront. Wahlaoo. Kind of sucky though.

Speaking of partying, I'm trying my best to kick all those temptations. Time to save up to get myself a bike instead. Plus, Mummy dah bagi I green light. Hehh.

B: Mummy, I'm starting to save up.
M: Save for what? Buying me tv ar?
B: Siao. That one can wait long-long pantat. I want save to buy bike laa.
M: Laa, bike apa?
B: Adek plan to take Spark. At least save minyak.
M: Spark mana satu? Asl tknk amek motor yg Mummy tunjukkan adek?
B: Motor apa Mummy tunjukkan? Fino? Tknk laa.
M: Fino ke? Tunjuk Mummy sikit.
***
M: Ini Spark?! Tk lawar aja.
B: Ini Fino.
M: Bukannn.
B: Abeh apa? The only bike Mummy pernah tunjuk adek is Gilera aja.
M: Tunjuk sikit.
***
M: ARRRR YESS. Amek nih laa. Kan lawar sikit.

Gila oiii. If she's going to supply me with the buckaroos nvm know. This one no. Like easy like that save for Gilera. Pantat betul! &all the boys keep on telling me not to take KR. Grrr. They look down on grls know. TSK. HELP ARRR. I'm contemplating alot this time. I've got 4 choices. &&OHHH! I'm sure babygie is smiling from ear to ear to know I'm on hiatus mode for partying.

With babygie around me, I'm sure I won't be at my lowest peak for long anymore. But it's hard not to miss douche. I've been telling the whole world how much I hate you, how much I've moved on from you. Well, truth is, it's just words to keep me going on strong. To tell myself you're not worth my misses. Fact is, I do linger on your wall, &you keep on running on my train of thoughts. How to kick you out, tell me?! Urghh.

At times like this too, I feel like ignoring some people. Everyone knows the ratio of the number of boyfriends in my life is way alot more than having grlfriends. &the only reason so, is because I can never click with too many grls for long. But the handful grlfriends I have in my life is an exception. But right now, it annoys me that some people think I can never differentiate these boys. Righttt, I've got a clear line to distinguish them k. &at times, these boyfriend's grlf will lose trust on them &put the blame on me. AR MEH ISAP. Tsktsk.

After whatever happened in the past week, I thank babygie &Y for advising me. If it wasn't because of these two, I would have given hope on the boys for long. Sayang krg k. Mwah. Now, these boys are back on the favourite track. &Y, pls think carefully before marrying. You're still young ehh!

Enough on getting hurt for the same reason. Xoxo.

Letting it go was never a regret, yes?

2010-07-15T15:10:00.001+08:00

Major Lazer was great on the 27th June. Spin was alright. Crowd was irritating though. But nothing could beat how Steve Aoki spin. That was still the best lorrr. I'm still counting down to Laidback Luke though. Afrojack, come down Singapore can? Hehh. I'll be the frst in line. Promise.

I swear it was a last minute thing again. Frh only asked me at abt 7PM. Wahlaoooo. But somewhere in the middle, we had another plan. Which is to just slack in town, cocking. Haikal didn't pick up Frh's call, so she literally thought he's asleep. So back to square one. Major Lazer. Tsktsk.

I didn't want to join Frh with Yasmin &the usual. Because of what I had the last week. I malu knowww. Perangai sibuk only. Tsk. But Yasmin marah I, dia nak rembat I because I malu to meet them. Hahaha.

We were somewhere in the middle &we saw Farhan Okgo &the clan on the podium. Epic! So much for the last. Check-check last of the week. Cb. So hardcore. &Wan just asked me if I'm going this Friday's We Love House. Contemplating lehhhh!

An has already offered to get me in his list. Which means to say, entrance will be free. But, I tk biasa party with him. So I'll be depending on my party people. &apparently, Frh has already confirmed about not going. Since she purposely overspend her money so she won't be tempted to go. Siak arrr. There goes my chance in partying with An.

But I think it's all for the better if I don't go this week. I've been heading to Zouk frequently enough that I could be called like what I've been calling those regular clubbers. Nvm, at least I don't go weekly. I go on alternate weeks. Heh. Whatever it is, even when I'm not a regular, I'm being called as one alr. So go on laa k, your mouth anw.

P/S: I miss those boys.

It's all goodbye(s) that I get. Xoxo.

That one time changes the whole perception.

2010-07-15T05:04:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to sleep on these train of thoughts. But I couldn't sleep early. So I was up late &when it's about 3 plus in the morning that these eyelids got heavy. &it gets heavier as every minute ticks by. I had the past an hour an a half laughing, confiding, advicing, teasing Y. But now that he's done his rounds &wants to sleep, I'm left alone. &in order to stay awake at this timing, I think I'd just update on another event.

This was on the 18th. Well, theorically, on the night of 18th &wee hours of 19th. &yes, it was this very night that I wish to forget the most among all my party nights. Really. TSK. I'll elaborate on why later. Anyhoots, I was late. The rest met up at One Fullerton. Done with their intoxication &I just reached the place, sober. Mana tak?! Work ended late &taxi driver mintak kene rembat! Irrzx. He practically took the long route. Imagine, my destination is right infront, about 2KM away. But this uncle took a left turn, making us end up in the same place the frst time. Mcm nak ketuk je kepala dia. &I practically shouted at him laa! Sheeesh.

Ysee, with that, how would I not be mengamuk, rightttt. A cock up night, that is. Next was we were still hanging outside Butter Fact close to 2. For the sake of the Powerpuff Grls, it's not funny k! Especially when you've yet to enjoy some fun. Urghh. One, it being full house. Two, we were waiting for the bouncer to give us the cue.

We got really impatient looking at the time that we headed to Zouk instead. (Pergi balik, Zouk. If they ask for orang kuat Zouk, I think I nak join the line. Got potential what. Hahaha.) Apparently, Aliman's cousin's friends are more to Rebel. Tsktsk. &it sucks everytime I head for some party, An would be pestering me to head to Rebel &saying how boring Zouk is. Boring?! AR MEH ISAP. TSK.

Y'all must be wondering why I have that plaster right? Yeh, I was from work. &Aliman had to tempt me while I was working. TSK! K, the point was, I had an accident with R1. &the boys at work have been calling me minah rempit sejati. Kirakan fierce ar, kene cium dgn R1. Siak btl. You tell me, who on Earth will you find someone partying right after an accident? I'll be the only one. Hardcore oi. Haha. &it gave me all the reasons to cab down to meet them. One, I miss the last train to town. Two, I'm way behind time. Three, I had an accident. Haha.

&speaking of the accident, Mummy long knew about it. &she was still fine with me working as PH rider. So right, I think got high probables that I might get what I want. Hehh.

Bottom line, it's this very night that I would want to forget (but apparently, failed at it.) Mana tak! I was still remorse over the fact he left, accident at work, then taxi lambatkan lagi, waste time outside Butter Fact, masuk club lambat, hangover pun rabak oiii. I woke up the next morning with a bump on my head, pain all over. &after that night, I vow not to be a drunkard bitch. NO MORE, I PROMISE Y'ALL. Pinky swear. Hehh.

I'll get used to those endings. Xoxo.

A single bullet got me.

2010-07-15T03:12:00.001+08:00

The procrastinator queen is back. I'm having the time of the month, &it sucks to know that I suffered from crankiness. Honestly, since when have you develop to get cranky on PMS mode, Ky?! Urghhh! Maybe because quite alot has been on my mind lately. &adding to that will be some asshole, boy_pecahchos is being an irritant on my FB wall. Ada aja status aku nak menyampuk. Si penyibuk malap nih! TSK. Kau is pecahchos, don't anyhow call some grl you dk a minah. Such a turn off, really.

Want know how to fuck life? Right. You can do just that by fucking off from my wall. Bodoh betul. Muka dah pecahchos, English berterabur! Omg, get some brain job pls!

I think I should stop venting my anger on this site. Angst got to me that fast, yes? Kk, on a slightly pink note, this was on 13th June. Actually I have another update where those favourite boys of mine &I headed to Waves right after my frst day at work. But I decided to ditch it, since I'm scratching off the favourite from them. Go on disappearing, I can just sense how irrelevant y'all are to me right now alr.

I bet someone is happy because I ain't meeting them anymore. Go on, smile. But trust me, I'm not on the losing end honey. They just prove to me how much the word "friend" value to me. Thanks for that boys.

As for these people, I'm grateful to Rozzy for letting me know each one of them. Actually, even before I met them at frst, I've alr knew most of them by name. &they know me too. Reason being, Rozzy keeps talking about them to me. &me to them. So yeh.

&occasionally, these people will ask me to tag along. &I just realised my party people comes from these group of people in my life! Greattttt. I want to find more friends who's staying far from me, can? Somehow my theory abt friends who stay near me doesn't stay long yet I'm still in contact with the far ones. One good example will be babygie.

That night was a fun one. Though it's kind of a last minute thing. Meeting those people after so long. &somehow, the fun I had that moment, helps to kick Mat off my mind. Thankyou. &seeing how Hafiz Pearls hanging those plastic on the rope &posing like one prostitute makes me laugh alot alr. Hahaha. Sajak laa tu dgn nama dia. *sneezes* Ooops, I think I did it again. HAHAA. Sorry Pearl.

&yes, somehow I did somehow fulfilled Rozzy's wish laa kan. Practically, though. Since she wanted to kirim some jelingan. But I didn't laa kan. Because I is nice. But I did my best by being me &starting on my sarcasms. Hahaha. Bayekkkkk. Member sampai mengamuk nak carik, mintak number. Stupid werewolf! Jumpa dpn-dpn bukannya nak mintak, blakang org baru nak mintak org lain. Perangai bola gantung kat rumah ar boy. Sheeesh.

K, I'm starting it again. At times like this, I want to develop the Salvatore brother's blood. Pretty pls. I nak dua-dua vampire. Way better than Edward Cullen ar pls! Vampire Diaries Season 2 better start fast. I'm in need of your episodes. Klau tak, I jadi vampire skejap lagi.

This time baby, I'm bulletproof. Xoxo.

I'm hating both the player &the game.

2010-07-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

You overthink and speak cryptically. I should know that you're no good for me. I should have took caution when it comes to this. My illusion, my mistake. I hate it when you're still in my mind. I hate the fact that I still lingers around &see you smile. Urgh, note to self. Let it go, a little bit more, I'm happier without you.

Sports Camp 2010 sucks big time. (Not that it didn't suck the past years, it did. But this one, suckiest of them all. It's like as if the committee was busy sucking each other's dick that they forget all about the camp.) Really, the only person who knew how sucky it is, was some asshole motherf douchebag. Besides the campers though. Because he was the only one who were there to hear me whine all the time. Goddamnit! But well, the plus point was, I get to meet some awesome people like Mimsy, Shanky, Shu &Hamham. :DD

P/S: I miss those LNCAT. =/ Urghhh. Sugar's sake, I should pretty well kick him out of my mind. Kk, let's do the very frst step in kicking him out. Study Sales Management 6Ps, let's go!

Face it, I don't own you. Xoxo.

When expiration wasn't attached to us.

2010-07-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

This site have been proving to me how much of a procrastinator I am. A big one at that, obviously. But no, even when I'm already proven so, I still didn't budge or do whatever shitnots to stop making delay for everything in life. Uh-huh, sometimes I wonder what will make me stop.

&yes, if you must know, this was on the 29th last two month. OMG RIGHT! A BIG TIME PROCRASTINATOR.

Met these grls at Marina Bay &as usual, I was late. See everything about me spells as late. TSK! I swear I have no sense of punctuality. Mcmana nak succeed in life, you tell me! No idea kan. Eh omg. Somebody knocked some hard sense into me. Mampos taknak.

Kk, so apparently, we all got into the wrong queue. Well, the queue was supposed to be on the other side laa. But these two were queueing up alr &it got me thinking why I had to turn right to meet them when fact is the queue was on the opposite side. &obviously a one thing about bus is that when we're not waiting for it, numerous of it will come by. But when we are, mcm suar. Every 20min baru smpai. TSK!

So we ditched the idea of going to Marina Barrage because the shuttle bus was taking freaking long &when it arrived, the whole goddamn bus was too full for us to get in. &in addition, it was weekend. Obviously, if we were to get our ass there, we won't even find any place to settle for. So, we decided to head for Marina South Pier instead. This is when the bus theory comes in. Haha.

It was alright though. But I'm seriously wondering why someone thinks Marina South Pier is way better than Marina Barrage. Besides the peacefulness you get there laa kan. Sheeeesh. But forget it, that someone is just another stranger now. Ada hati want ajak me go Ubin. Mak kau laa eh. Tsk!

I think Rozzy Yana has a bad hand at taking pictures. Not trying to disrespect my baby there, but omg. Hahaha. But at least we all had a fun last-minute time doing some threesome fun, yes? Nak lagi k. Well, at least we had some food, talking cocks, riddles, bitching &capturing those memories. (Which up till now, Myr have yet to solve Zy's riddle. HAHAHA.) I swear we were all being racist. Sheeesh.

The day had to end pretty early. Well, Myr had to meet up with forget-who. It's not like as if I wouldn't want to continue bitching with Rozzy in town. But I got a call from tangkes saying he just met with an accident &is on his way to the hospital. I swear the grls were mocking Alep the moment I repeated what he said on the phone about his teeth being broken. HAHA. Pecahchos! So yeh, went home early &visited Alep.

Kk, let's do this again some time soon k babies. Next to the Waterfront. I shall now study on the 6Ps for tmr's UT. Urghh.

I miss those random texts. Xoxo.

Reality will always be a blurred vision.

2010-06-24T16:11:00.000+08:00

Third meeting started &I swear I is bored that I'm blogging. AGAIN. But it's kind of a good thing laa kan. Because it's been quite a some time since I rant here. I've been updating my Twitter &Tumblr only. &ditching Blogger just like that.

Speaking of which, my Tumblr were very veryyyy down. Why? I fell out of love again. As usual. But no, this time I'm stronger. So it took quite a short time. But even though I'm over it, I can't deny I still miss those times. But I'll just take your friends as a form of your replacement. No worries. But yes, I still hate you. Very veryyyyyy much. Be a man &start maturing k douche? :D

This was on the 25th. As usual, it'll just be the four of us. Apparently, the whole 805 remedies sort of separated. Either due to being busy bees thanks to school commitment or some unseen issues. I miss those frst few days of school. Where we still meet up during breakout &after school while waiting for the rain to subside. :(

Watched The Losers. &it was great. The movie was a 4.5. As usual, I expected some 3D effect of the seat from myself. HAHAHA. I still remember it was that very week where I kept on watching movies. I think the Cathay staffs can recognise our faces very well alr leh! If only I were to save up that money instead of watching. Sighh. But whatever it is, it happened alr. Right now, I shall just try to endure with the tight financial I have this month. Tahan Ky, tahannn.

It has always been the four of us lately. I hope the moment I start being workaholic, going to work after school, I won't be missing out that much from them. I is sad because everyone went missing. No more smoke break together like the old times.

Stupid RP! You sucks alot. Really. If there's a wish you were to give me, I'd say burn down this damn school. Urghhhh!

I'm still contemplating. Either to join them for makan time at Tamp later or to meet Harun. I swear he is already making me laugh in class! Omg, laughing alone in class, is no good k! Sheeeesh. I'd want to meet him since he just got discharged from hospital. But then again, I want babygie to be around. Sigh. We'll see how it goes laa.

The pages of life keeps on repeating itself. Xoxo.

There's memories to everything that's expired.

2010-06-24T12:32:00.000+08:00

I'm at school with a super duper truckload heavy eyelids because I was out the whole night, behaving like a dracula, (According to what Mummy calls my nightlife is. Can say owl, she dw knowwww. Sheeesh.) meeting up my favourite boys. &I is not in the mood of contributing anything to the team. I hate Financial &Banking Application. Damn. Sucks big time lehh. Urghh!

It's still the second meeting &faci is showing us the UT answers. So I shall take this time to update this rusty site of mine on Rozzy's brthday bash.

So this was on the following Monday after her brthday, 24th to be exact. She was so confident that we let her off with the sabotage &all. But what is brthday without sabo right? So much for booking flight tickets to the North Pole! HAHAHA.

&Mummy even commented about these photos yknowww.

Mummy: Kesian Rozzy, adek sabo dia.
Baky: HAHAHA. Nak kesiankan dia buat ape, gila? Dah brthday dia pe. Sabo aje laa.
Mummy: Abeh dia kene tepung mcm nenek kebayan.
Baky: Haha. Dah bagus tu adek cume bagi dia tepung. I was thinking of egg, water, syrup k.
Mummy: Mummy kalau dpt kwn mcm adek, cnfrm menyumpah!
Baky: Hahaha. Tu Mummy. Nih Rozzy.
Mummy: Malu nyer. Gi mkn dgn rambut, baju smue bau tepung.
Baky: Baru tepung, Mummy. Drg buat adek lagi malu on my brthday!

We had a little bit of cock up here &there. To surprise her with the cake &the flour. I was in the hiding with the flour at frst, right after she came back from the toilet with Myr. But she arrrr, had to choose to pick up a call at this particular spot where it'll be very bochui to see me! Haiyaaa. Howells, but it's okay. It was still successful laa. Hehh.

&the frst thing she did right after getting those flour was to protect her cake from getting into contact with flour. &not to forget, protecting it to prevent Hassan from using it as another form of a sabotage. &she literally made Hadi to clear the flour off from her mobile. Mcm siakkk.

&then she went around trying to get some flour on us. Prangai besar peh suar knowwww. Tsktsk! &finally, when Hassan got a hold on her cake, she ran away! But we got hold of her &I swear she looked like Medusa while shaking the flour off from her hair. HAHAHA.

&by the time she came back from the toilet for some washing up, we all surprised her with the brthday present. But unfortunately, it was wayyyyyyyy too big for her. Hahaha. But nvm, I bet it's the best brthday gift she got since we all fulfilled her wish. Hehh.

&once we're all done, Afiq, Myr, Zy &I headed to Sakura while the rest went home. I swear the four of us were starving like hell because we vowed to fast on that day to eat alot at Sakura. Sumpah, smue kebulur nak mampos. Sakit oi perut I. :( What's with the cramps &gastric acting up. Whoaaa. Best mixture of all. Mintak kene tanam aje perut nih. But no laa. I'm strong, I is pink ranger mah. Hahaha.

I had aloooooooot of food intake that I showed the white flag frst among them all. Cannot blame leh. I've a small tummy. Which is why I've never liked the idea of buffet! &even when I was the frst to surrender, my tummy was the utmost outstanding one! Like 2 months pregnant siaaaa. I had a difficult time hiding it on my way home. :(

I had alooooooooot of fun on that day. Really. Mana tak? We had lemon &otah-otah. That was a real good combination to make us bitch the whole day. What's with the full stomach, &then a hard pack laughter had to add on to it. Sheeeesh. A real good stomach exercise knowwww. Six pack boleh klua anytime.

&OHHH! Rozzy put a banana in my bag. Prangai Civic Gardens siaaa. Musibot! Grr. I was lucky enough to find it out in the bus otw to the interchange. I swear my reaction made us laugh like hell. Ccb. Nak time gini lagi. Pls ar plssssss.

Eh, second breakout is here &I'm still in class. Not going down for a smoke. Because apparently, Rozzy told me the whole bunch at the voiddecks got fined for smoking. &she emphasise on te word all. Puki laa RP. Skola mcm sial. Want step smoke free campus only. I burn the school down then yknow! Urghhh.

It's no longer like a new piece of paper. Xoxo.

Because these therapies help broken hearted ones.

2010-06-13T10:02:00.001+08:00

Everyone's asleep &I'm awake. Even Mummy said I'll sleep when everyone else in the neighbourhoos wakes up. Anyhow only she. I bet they other kids having their holiday are like me also. But heck them, I die alr laa! My body clock have re-adjusted itself to the nocturnal timezone. Howww?! &school starts tmr, I so need to re-adjust it back to schooling mode. Haiyaaaa. How I wish the school will extend the holiday. TSK!

&speaking of school, I have a mother toot UT on the frst day! Me no likeeeee. Ccb. URGHH! I've yet to study for it somemoreeee. How to? I've not had my sleep, &I have work later. No time to study lehhh! Bodoh laa Ky. But nvm given myself, I think I'll be able to selit-selit some time for some last minute revision of 6Ps. Else, worse come to worse, I'll just burn the midnight oil. Since I'm in the nocturnal timezone anw. Haha.

Anyhoots, this was on the 21st May. Know why I can rmb the date?! Because it's my twin's brthday! Hehh. :B Celebrated her 20th brthday at Zouk. &I miss being a partyasaurus though. Haiyaaaaa. It's been almost a month I've not been partying lehhh. Else, you'd see my FB with updates of party pictures every week. But no, I shall hold on to my words on not being a party animal.

Speaking of which, We (L) House was so-so. I'd say nothing beats Steve Aoki's event. That was the dopest shit ever. I've been to Zouk &it made me miss PH even more. But then again, like what my party bitches have come up with, the more fishing you want, the more money you've got to fork out. True thatttttt!

&yes, usually, y'all will only see me with my 2 other party bitches. But this time, you'll see more people. Reason being, Frh being a hardcore party animal knows alottttttt of people &because of that, her party friends ended up joining us. What do you expect from party people? Obviously friendly ones. So it was alright laa. &coincidentally, it was Aidil's brthday the next day after Rozzy. Which was after 12 at that point of time laa, of course. Haha.

&yes, the brthday boy had a little too much to drink. HAHAHA. Just look at him laa! Buto, wasted night. &the other boys could still point their fingers, which will be broken if I were to meet them one day, at me. Ninabu. If that night was a wasted one, then what dyou call it when Steve Aoki was in the house? Sheeeesh. What only them boys.

&stopit eh, y'all human race should really stop asking if I'm heading to some party. Also stop asking me if I went down for some party everytime you see me online ard 6 or 7. Because I'm not. &I have not for a month, which seems very looooooong indeed. Muke aku muke cap club pe sia? -.-! Haiyaaa. Irrzxzx.

&OHH! Boy came down to Zouk. Apparently to what he claimed, was to meet me. But as usual, for me, it'll always be an eye for an eye. I was glad I gave him a smirk &just walked off making the party a more important thing than him. AMEKKAU! So much for those likes eh Boy? So he went off to Zirc instead.

&yes, given my unintentional contact cleanups, I'm very elated to have alooooooooot of unnecessary numbers out of my lists. Imagine from a list of 390+ to 89. Baiiiiik. It's just a matter of perhiasan lorrr. Eh wait, let me translate it. A form of decoration to be precise, which is there but not there yknow. Waste of my space only lor. So I do have a reason if these boys say I went missing. Nyahaha.

Frh last warning siaaa. Take zoom in picture of the boys. The most epic one was on Farhan's. HAHAHA. Omg, epic big timeeee. Everytime I had a look at it, I'll just get myself a tummy ache. Since he didn't want me to upload it on FB, then be it lor. At least he won't know I post it here. HAHAHAHA. Bastard sia Ky.

Sadly to say, I didn't get to see Zy having a wasted night. She's lucky she got herself a work interview. Else, she'll be that wasted, we can find her sleeping outside the club again. Hahahaha. Kk, joking only ar bay. Don't take it to heart.

Eh fuck, timecheck: 1023 AM. &I'm still here blogging. Kbye, off to sleep alr. Hopefully I can wake up for work later on. *cross fingers* Sendiri mau yakinnnnn. Hehhh.

P/S: I wonder all this boys have something in common with JS. Especially when it comes to their appearance. If it's not appearance, it'll be the way we communicate. Haiyaaaaa!

You're eenie meenie winy more out of the mind. Xoxo.

Let's face it. You're not mine to start with.

2010-06-12T08:30:00.000+08:00

I've been telling myself time will heal. If I can survive JS, I can survive this. I've been through worse. This is easy, wayyyy easier to handle. But I guess it's just words of determination from myself. Because it seems not easy to do it now. Haiyaaaaa! &I hate it when I'm alone, especially. Because I'll tend to miss all those crazy shits we did that night.

&the only time I could make this mind escape through those thoughts will be when I'm working. Where I'll be busy otr, concentrating on the traffic flow &such. Where I'll be busy ignoring all those mats cat calling.

Yesss, speaking of work, I'm coping well. Ytd was the second day at work &I'm getting better at sending order. My street directory has improved! But there's more to come though. TUAS PLS DON'T CALL ME. Pretty plssss. But I guess, one day, I'll still have to go. Face it, Ky. Sheeesh. Those boys at work already said I have the potential to be minah rempit. Then some even said I'm hardcore. Just because I sent 2 orders at one go. Wahlaooo. It's in the same street. So why not rightt? Ape laa krg nih.

But ohh! The closing was hectic. I swearrr. Carrying all the dough to the rubbish bin was a serious retard. Really. It looks so small, but it's fucking heavy k! I think I cn grow some muscles if this carry on.

Anyhoo, this was one one of those days when I was supposed to have my FYP meeting. But I was late. So I only ended up meeting my one of my groupmate only. I feel bad &I have a bad feeling abt this. Haiyaaaaa. How I wish my advisor can just make the meeting after noon. Irrzxzx. I hate waking up early knoww! TSK.

I rmbered I had a bad start for the day. But thanks to Myr, everything was fine. Almost fine. &don't you dare sweetheart me, bitch. It's my mouth, I've got the rights to say whatever I want. It's already a good thing I said it right in your face, jokingly. Why bother bringing up the past? Kau dari dulu, prangai tk ubah-ubah. Tsktsk! Grow up, have a matured mind plsss. With that kind of mind you have, you don't go anywhere in life. Really.

OH! The day should end well because I had plans on partying with Boy &Frh. But Boy ditched me last minute. Mintak kene bomb Hougang arrr! This one also go missing. TSK.

K enough insulting. I've got bigger issue to handle. My life, that is. Things aren't going well on my side. &I just wish you're out of my head. I'll soon be at the point of no return. Really. A close friend of mine knocked some sense into me today. I'm glad I have him as one of the CCBoys. He's the only jantan I'll believe. Period. Knowing it's just some tactic Mat used, well I guess it's a good thing now.

But to you, seriously if you think I'm just like any other typical grls you cn kutip tepi longkang, then here's what I got to say. TK DPT AR SUARRR! Lu fanatic, big fuck maner peh cutting pun, gua ehsai laa matttt. Tk goyang sama lu. Dream on k? I may be gullible, but I ain't dumb like them grls to give it away. Be a man &do the right thing. Bodoh! Harapkan aje tua, dah laa pendek, tk gentleman langsung, shoulder hanger. Isap sama lu peh straightforward ar boy. _|_ Sumpah name kau sajak gilaaaa. I think I'm on the verge of unleashing the sister Teck Whye if I carry on.

Sorry stalkers but I just had to let it out here. Hopefully this blog will be read. (Y) I so want to see how mad he'll be at me. Bring it on. I'm fucking game.

Sorry doesn't cut it. Xoxo.

There's oil spill, I'm in no mood for fishing.

2010-06-10T02:30:00.006+08:00

I haven't been active with Blogger lately. Eversince I created myself a Tumblr. Eh no wait. I have always not been active with Blogger. HAHAHA. I'm still 4 weeks behind schedule. Goshhhh.

Camp was terrible &I've been feeling terrible too. But no worries, I'm feeling all better now, especially today. I bet I'll be all me later on. Reason being, I'll be starting work &I've to be sociable so that everytime Idk anything, I can just ask ard. Good righttt. Hopefully those PH riders will be nice to me.

But anyhoo, I miss my babygie. It's been awhile since I met her. We usually do every week. But this time, no meetups. I hope she's fine with all her confused thought settling around her. I have faith in you k bay?

&&ohh! Harun asked when will I go out with them again. Them as in Mat &friends. &I STRONGLY TOLD HIM I WON'T BE MEETING THEM ANYMORE. Cnfident knwww! Due to some unseen circumstances he should ask his deary friend. But nvrtheless, I told him, given the world with too many connections, he can always meet up if babygie is meeting me! Yayyy.

I'm all well, but I can't deny those facts I keep to myself. Xoxo.

Maybe this time, my mind will be occupied.

2010-06-01T14:30:00.004+08:00

Off for Sports Camps now. Can't waittt. Hehh. I miss the sands alr know! Sentosa wait for me k? Will only be back on Thursday. Y'all know where to reach me. Still waiting for Myr to reach though. Haiyaaaa. This grl so slow knowww. Sumpah prangai roackstar abesssss! But nvm, the management are used to us being late everytime. Hahaha.

Shan't be a weak target. Xoxo.

Speak up if you want it.

2010-05-31T05:05:00.003+08:00

Again, I'm blogging at this kind of timing. But thank goodness, there's such a thing as blogging. Else, I think I'll be dead for having too much thoughts in the mind. It sucks when you're alone, you'll always over-think. If it makes you reflect, good. But lately, it hasn't. It's always making me ponder &then I'll be down just like that. This is so not me lorrrr! Damnzxzx.

When you wait, there'll be zilch. But when you're too occupied with life that you don't even have time to wait, many appear. &soon, all will be gone. It'll always be a cycle. Life, always have been. So far, one is down which didn't affect me at all. Buttt, I'm stuck to one though. Urghhh. This is not what I planned. It sucks when things doesn't go as what you planned. I need to be stronger &not melt over anything else. (A MUST!) The only thing that cn make me melt will only be Bieberbaby. Hehh.

Understand, no? Because I myself dk what this mind is going through. Tripped wires, that is. As much as it being trippy, I'm assured it ain't falling. At the same time, I think I should give myself a chance to get into the scene which I haven't been doing or rather which I have been avoiding. End of this week, we'll see abt it. Let's not get excited over nothing, though.

Speaking of occupied, I've been occupying myself with my friends. But I is sad because I rarely see Mummy. Or even monstr. Even if I see babysis, both of us will just get busy with our own things. This shall always be a problem. But a problem is there to be solved. So I shall handle it skillfully. Nyahaha. For the meantime, I shall occupy myself with school, consisting of classes, PP, FYP &UTs. &then I'll get my ass busy with work, which I should prolly get. Even Joy &Acit said so. Because of their convo they had with their manager, Jenny.

Jenny: Joy, your friend say he want work rider right?
Joy: Huh? He? Who?
Jenny: Haiyaaa. He put Acit &Alep as his friends ar.
Joy: Who siaaa? Let me see the aplication form.
***
Joy: Ohhhh! Baky laa! She grl laa, Jenny! Not boy.
Jenny: Oh grl ar?! I thought boy.
(Somehow, I think the manager also stupid. Nvr see the gender being ticked)
Joy: So how? You want accept ar?
Jenny: I anything. But rider all need to do heavy task leh. Se can meh?
Joy: Can laa. If not why she still want to apply right?

HAHAA. EPIC FAILLL! The one I'm laughing my ass off is about what Myr said being spot on. Because from what Joy told me, 3 of them riders who Idk, read my aplication form. Then die-die, dragged Jenny out of her room &psychoed her to accept me. -.-!

But we'll see if I get in or not k? Wish me luck! Because it's time I want to become a workaholic. Money's been an issue lately. Haiyaaa. Life with partying every week made it this way. TSK! But then again, partying wasn't the only issue. Food took alot of my kachings too. &thanks to that, I'm a fat grl now! HAIYAAAA! &everytime I'm bored, I'll be heading to the cinema. MANER TAKKKK!

OHHH! Speaking of cinema, this was on Monday. The day when alot of them 805 were not in school. Even if some were, they didn't halo-halo or anything lor. So it was left with Myr, Afiq &I. Ate at ArtBites &headed to 805. WITH NO ONE THEREEEE! Sedz or whattt. Thanks to the boredom, we had a last minute plan. Which was to catch Ip Man 2. GEREKKKK.

But somehow, everyone said I is kental. Because I cried in an action-packed movie. But I cried over the death of the fat Huang lorrr! Maner tk sedih? Die for the country. Sheeeesh. They all arrr, no feelings of patriotism one arrrrrr!

I wonder, how much tears will be flowing out if I were to watch The Last Song. Matttt, tngk TLS jommm! Heh. Oh anyway, I'm alr having my 2 weeks holiday. But I doubt I'll have a feel of it being a holiday. I'm alr occupied the frst week lehh! Meeting Myr later, having Sports Camp from 1st to the 3rd. Going for Maman's sistr wedding (I think?) on the 5th with the 805 ppl. LIKE FINALLY! &obviously, I won't be at home on weekends. Powerpack, I tell youuuu.

You had me since hello. Xoxo.

Even Sandra Bullock said it's where we grls feel sexy.

2010-05-30T07:22:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why I'm always blogging at this hour. Don't ask. Maybe my bodyclock have gone haywire. &most of the time, I have nothing to do at this timing. &the frst that came up my mind was to update this site. Since it's lagging behind timely updates. (Note: 4 weeks behind.)

Speaking of time, I have one more day to complete my PP scope. Wahpiang ehhh. This one better not be like last yr. Note to self: NO MORE PROCRASTINATING! I'm in Yr 3. &I swear, I don't wish to repeat. It's the last thing on my mind. :(

This was the week when I realised that my current 805 remedies haven't meet for a really long time. Smoke breaks were on separate timings. I mean, we do meet up &all. But no, I miss the times when we were all together talking cock after school while waiting for the rain to stop. Damnit, why are everyone busy with their work? :(

But anyhoots, frst week of the month &I rmbered I was so motivated to get my ass to my FYP meeting. But I was late because I met up with the lawyer. Just as when Kak Mazni sent me off to school, Geraldine called to tell me, the meeting is over. BAYEKKKKK. Amalkan slalu! So I halo-halo with Myramay &walked back to CWP. Buang mase aje go to school knowww. TSK! If I'm not wrong, we had, Iron Man 2. (Damnit, I had difficulties rmbering the movie! Blame it on procrastination.) Headed to Sharon's for a fringe cut &trimming done. Back to CWP &the two of us slacked till it was time to get home.

Ar yes, it was that very week that I kept on meeting Myr. When I come school, the others nvr come. Vice versa! But nvm, Myr is always giving me plans to do whensoever I is bored. Headed down to Lot 1 on Thursday &I swear it was a motherfucking ghost townnn! Somehow it got me thinking abt the times I was working in NYNY. Rindu oiiii with F&B line. Sheeesh.

&OHHH! Myr's got headache &felt like puking. Last warning eh grl. I think if you ever set foot in a club, more worse! That was just half a stick. No more for you horrrr.

Friday was always the start of my weekends. Met up with Myr again at Bishan &accompanied her since she's got no where to go. I is nice knowww. But at the same time I had to be nice to my other friends. So I divided my time. Because of that, I had to rush home to meet Chup.

Homed, showered, changed. Head down &told him I was hungry. At the same time, babygie texted me. So, what was on my mind? To meet up with babygie even for a short while &have my dinner with her. Happy sangatttt. After dinner at Newton, we rushed to Zouk because apparently, Frh was waiting alr. Lucky 15 minutes. Heng arrr. But this time not my fault ehh.

Steve Aoki was greatt. His spins, superbb, I tell youuu. But as much as it being the most superb-est night of the week, I still hate the fact that it was powerpacked in there. Very difficult to walk lehhh! The queue took abt 15minutes. But the luggage queue, terrible ar sia. Approximately 1 hour. We were near to the counter &they changed the sign to FULL. Ninabu, carik kemarahan. But nvm, settled. We went out to get ourself a drink. &the uncle said no purchases after 12. One more ninabu incident. TSK! But nvm, we had control of our night &we still got it. Ape ckpppp?

Wahh, I tell you arrr. That night full of ninabu incident knowww. We have been transferring places, frstly because they wanted to wash the place. Next some hotel receptionist shoo-ed us away. Peh kurang ajar. But nvm, still the most enjoyable. It's been what? 4 weeks alr, yet everyone said nothing beats Steve Aoki's. But too bad, I can't rmb much. Sheeesh.

Trust me, I think just by taking a look at the pictures, I can know we spent alot of time in the toilet. Wahpiangggg. Lucky Frh was still around.

Okay enough abt partying, I'm putting a stop at it. Not a direct one. But a slow one though. Everyone's been asking if I'm partying. Wahh, my face, club face mehhhh!? Come, you treat me, then I go. Somehow, being broke is a good thing. It helps you to resist the temptation. (Y)

Okay, I want go find company to do up on my PP. Then I shall head to sleep. Niyang Rapik can watch laterrr. Hahaha.

Don't boo me, start proving your words aren't empty. Xoxo.

The ones I want to keep a whole of lifetime.

2010-05-29T06:43:00.002+08:00

If the previous post was on 1st May. This was on the 2nd then. Because I rmb telling babygie that I'm not confident of getting up early to meet her since I'm going to be wasted on the night of 1st May. Ysee, at least I don't do empty promises. She must be proud of having a babygie like me. HAHAHA. Okay, self proclaim.

Alarmed at 2. &yayy, surprisingly, I woke up. Met her for some facial at Nico's shop. &I tell you arrr, once again, I is nice to wear a dress with her because she wanted to so badly. Although I have an ugly leg, &took the risk to let everyone take a look at it &laugh. Haiyaaaa. I think that's why the commuters at Paya Lebar were looking at me. Because of my ugly leg. But somehow, I have a huge feeling, it's abt my dress. Sheeesh.

&she was late ehhhh! For the frst timeeee. Lucky I had Zy accompanying me otp. I was supposed to hear her problems out but no, I ended up feeling bad because her ears got too hot (I think?) because of my profanities. Every single time those pervetic commuters look at me.

&OHHH! I'm glad Zy followed my steps. Omg, that moment when I cried at 805 really was a joke. Imagine someone crying. &then suddenly, she shove her thoughts off &asked herself why on Earth she's crying when fact is she's strong. Ar yes, that person was me. But Zy, being my twin, followed it. &I'm sure, since she's my twin, Confucius will be gone for long. Good riddance!

Eh shucks, sidetracked. After facial, we grls headed to town. The plan was to get mother's day present. But no, we ended up at Suntec, eating. Too hungry to wait for the boys lorrr! So we went ahead without them. Haha. We talked over our food &it was long. That we didn't really touch on our food laa!

Qif &Man reached &we headed off to Changi Village to wait for Wan. The moment Wan reached, we went to Airport. Because the boys alr planned on eating Popeye's. The route to Airport took forever, I tell you! You know those kind of long stretch of road which never ends? That kind, only that there's bends here &there though.

OHHH! Speaking of Popeye's, I remember my conversation with babysis while frying. PEH SLENGE!

Ain: Kakak, my brthday coming. Hehh.
Baky: Eee, you no shame one ar grl! What smile smile? Tell me for what?! Want present ar? I give you kiss ar can? I no work leh.
Ain: No work, then?
Baky: No work then no money laa bodoh!
Ain: Ohhh. I thought want ask you bring me to Po-po-yeh. (Note: The pronunciation. EPIC!)
Baky: HAHAHA. What sia In, po-po-yeh?
Ain: Po-po-yeh laa! Got chicken, mash potato.
Baky: Popeye laa bodoh! Who teach you pronounce like that?
Ain: Hehhh. No one. I teach myself.

Anyhoots, frst was the never ending route to Airport right? My butt was in pain due to too much of seating. Next was a wrong move by the boys to park their bikes at T1. They were confident Popeye's were at T1. So were had to walk all the way to the sky train &walk in circles to get to Popeye! Wahlaoooo. Frst butt, then legs. Haiyaaaaaaa!

But nvm, at least I still had fun with them. Just look at this 2 newly lovebirds. So happy right in the picture above? I is so happy for babygie lorrrr. It's the frst time I see her so happy, gugu-gaga-ing, speechless over a boy, esp this Orix. My best wishes to ytwo. Shits always happen, but if it does, pls mend your friendship okay? Don't lose contact &let the history re-enact again. I don't wish to lose ytwo or the other 2 brothers of mine.

&oh kelz, sorry ar. When we meet up, we never did choke everytime your name was in our mouth. Because we had nothing to talk abt you. Too much of having fun till we forgot you existed, dude! So don't bother asking anyone of us if we did talk behind your back. Even we did, so what? Tell me, which human beings don't. Everyone does, idiot!

Headed to Sengkang Park. But it was boring there. I swear! Wrong move. So we ended up slacking at Fer's voidpark. Crazy moments. I want more of this okay babies? More before Qif's time is being stolen away by the government.

As for now, I think it's best I end this post &head to sleep because I is meeting my grlfs at Marina Barrageeeeeee! More of photo taking plssssss. Tk sbrrr. Let's just hope I don't oversleep. Mummy, do your job. Thankyou!

Note to self: Time to head up for PP! Fuckkkkkkk.

It don't matter anymore now. Xoxo.

Therapeutic parties.

2010-05-20T03:02:00.001+08:00

I've been procrastinating to update on this one. But erhh, I guess I've been too busy lately. Very very busy. Infact, I myself dk what I'm busy with. Sheeesh. Oh wait, I was forced to occupy myself with school. (Keyword: forced) FYP, PP &what's more it's UT week. Mampossss! But it's okay. I voluntarily chose to occupy myself with friends. So I get a free destress session with them.

I just woke up from my powernap just now. But I is still sleepy. Still, I'm up this hour to study for UT later onnnn. Die arrr. I have yet to revise my 6Ps. (I was about to, when I thought I couldn't concentrate &started FB-ing. &then, now I'm here) Sumpah I wish life in RP is rewind to last 2 years. Back when I was still a year 1. It was so easy back then. No need to study for 6P also still can excel. Now?! C, D, C, B! Ninabuuuu! Now?! No more partial-ing as when I like. Now?! No more skipping class as when I like. Now?! Letter keeps on coming in &I might just get kicked out of school.

This was on 1st May. We were supposed to head to Supperclub. Because apparently, Rozzy's smallboy wanted to party with her before his time is stolen by the government. But somehow, since she's got this thing going on in circles, we decided not to head to Supper. Instead, Rebel/Zirc. Farah nearly wanted to peng for PH. Waduhhh.

There were so many last minute changes, I tell youuuuuu. Grrrr. But still we stayed with our initial plan. &for the frst time, Rozzy was lateeeeeeee! Fricking late. All thanks to one dickhead. TSK! She so smart knowwww. Telling us, she's moving off from town alr. Half an hour later, no sign. Only after an hour. TSK! &the truth was the moment she msged me, she was still in town. Only to walk to the train half an hour later. Bagussss. Aku suke, org ikut jejak aku. (Y)(Y)

Sumpah Absolute tested my energy malt level. Wahhh. I tell you, this time then I can say I is strong &I can take care of a drunk bitch. &&ended up unleashing the minahrep in me. Okay, chetttttt! That kental dunk bitch just gave me the permission to talk abt it behind her back. Talk as much as I can &she won't be mad at me. How I wish, I can do likewise to any other issues I'm mad with about her. But no laa, I is no backstabber, no? Well, those who're close to me will know.

Saw the drunk bitch sleeping? &I think I looked drunk too. But yabbedabedoooo. I is strong. I is pink ranger derrrr. Okay chet. I think the more I talk abt it here (even though it's literally behind her back), she'll get mad about it. So I shall be a nice twin &stop here. Fullstop.

When it was time, around 2, when Rzzy finally woke up, we headed in. It took eons for her to wake up, goddamnit! Frh gave up, I think, that she joined her friends over at the bridge. Hahahaaha. &OHHHH! I saw Farhan Paan on that day. But Idk if it was him at frst laa. So he was sad because I couldn't recognise. Butttt, I is nice to find him over at FB &tegur him. Hahahhaa. Memory deck getting worse ar. Sheeeesh. Looks like I just ditched on meeting him on the dancefloor tonight. Hahahahaha.

&I swear Zirc play astonishingly stupid songs. Like wth knowww. When it's ending, the DJ practically spin this kind of song where all the angmohs, light up their lighter &sway from left to right. What happened to tecktonik baby? Tsktsk!

Went separate ways. But it's still enjoyable ar. New party peopleeeee. Me likee.

P/S: I should really set a line for my nightlife &school. That it's starting to stir up my body clock &affecting my attendance. Let's go! Time to hit on those 6Ps.

I've got firm feelings. But nothing on you. Xoxo.

These aliens/creatures wear a mask of a human.

2010-05-13T16:04:00.004+08:00

Like finally, the karaoke pictures have been uploaded. Sorry ar. I go by the sequence of events I've had leh. So you ppl must wait nong nongggg for my updates. Apparently, I have some stalkers. Actually no ar. I've already realised I have them from the start. But now, I just realised there's actually some stalkers who behave just like mozzies.

Seriously, it cracked me up early in the morning today. Good right. No sleep no what. Yet I've had a good morning to start with. I'll story that some where in the middle.

Initially, the plan was to go Marina Barrage. But we ended up with going for some melalak session frst. As usual, all janji Melayu. Nasib no janji Mama. (Idw to use the other word we always use for the lowest rank of their race.) From what I've experienced, for the latter one, they'd just ditch you at the last minute without even informing you. Trust me, I've had that aloooooooot of time. It always happen.

We grls reached frst &Maman was like the pimp of the day. Until Afiq came soon after. Somehow last minute plan always turned out right. At least it's so much better than you planning out on things &getting excited over nothing because at the end of the day, the plan failed. So next time, it's best to plan last minute-ly. (Y)

As you can see, we were all busy taking pictures. But it was more like while some were singing, people like me will be going around taking their frames. &sumpah prangai budak irritating. How to sing properly when I keep on blocking the screen? I is mintak kene campak keluar bilik. Sheeeesh.

This can scare the shit out of me. I swear I have a scary twin. Mintak panggil kawan Rozzy dtg itu bilik siollll. But then again, I think making friends with kawan Rozzy is so much more mulia than knowing someeeee homo sapiens who doesn't have any guilty conscience &still have got the courage to tell the whole world abt his imaginary storyboard that doesn't make sense at all. Gosh! Like mother like son.

Azhar came after what took like eons. Like superstar alr. But then again, mmg dah superstar pun. Sheeeesh. But oh wells, still, I'm glad he managed to make up some time for us after his family outing. Sayang Jacobs.

Okay since there's nothing much that happened while we go melalak, I guess it's a good time for me to selit-selit some words.

Ever had the feeling when you're fighting with some one &the other party go all mad abt it? Ar yes, it felt great. Like all you did was just ranting in your own space &they go mad abt it. You can smell the scent of near victory so near to you. Seriously. Don't go around acting like you're the hero &I is the villain. But then again, do whatever you want because my conscience is clear. All I'm doing is continuing the game you started. &I'm very very sure all those profanities you said of me &my mother is worser than what I had in the previous post. So be a man &stop complaining to people that you're the innocent one. Hidup tu klau ader bola, jgn nk gantung ke tepi mintak belas simpati. -.-! Oh wait. You have? Doubt so. Haha!

&oh, it's just so true that you have that race in your blood. It's flowing in your blood manzx. Get a grip. Stop living in denial. Why bother getting mad just because I said you're one? Couldn't accept the fact? Then get all your blood out of your body. An easy way out, get into another accident. Maybe then your prayers abt getting me into ICU will just be true. But this time, it'll just hit back at you. Like I said, you start the game, I continue. &I won't lose. Just wait &see. Egocentric, yes? Oh wait, for someone like you, who couldn't accept the fact that my tangkes get into Higher Nitec &you don't, I doubt you know what egocentric means. Come to think of it, I doubt you understood what I've been talking abt. Haha. But wtv laa hor. Just for the smart ones. :D

Okay, back on track. Azhar was taking it too seriously. But then actually no ar. If I'm not mistaken, the other rooms were like literally shouting out loud. &it got our eardrums irritated that we decided to get into the battle. Tarik maha tarik gackkkk. Till his nerve all keluar. Sheeeesh.

Mane-maner pegi mesti mau jiwe 805 lor. Hahaha. Like coincidentally cool yknowwww. Ini baru jiwa baik punyaaaa. Gerekkkk!

&ohh, to the other one, for goodness sake. Be my stalker all you want. But trust me, you ain't scaring me. You're just acting wayyyy annoying than those mozzies ard. Haha. All this while, I knew you've been stalking me on Twitter or perhaps here. So I took on your bestf's game to have the previous post published. For I know you're just going to be like those reporters reporting strengths. Gerekkkk. (Y) Oh, &lastly, brush up on your sarcasms. Haha.

No wait. Akhir kata, you both should really get yourself more mirrors. It's good for the health. Krg dah dekat tuuu!

Sumpah this picture very disturbing. Like whoaa lorrr. Makcik kt blakang tngkkn ajeeee. Boys nowadays. What to do right? Sheeeeesh. I can like seriously imagine one of them turning gay &going into Voguelicious &be like the Afez who got instant fame from the video for catfighting with a grl. KENTZ!

AR THIS COUPLE ARRRR. Last warning horrrrr. Nak amek gmbr then take with the NTUC. &they claimed that they'll be marrying at NTUC in the future. -.-! Someone slap them in the face. Hahahaha.

Rmb downboy? Oh myyy. Speaking of which, I somehow miss my twin. We have been drifting apart &I haven't got to bitch with her like last time. I miss those times.

&this is also what I'm trying to point across. It's not a matter of how long you've been friends with some one. It's a matter of who you can relate with. Why bother still wanting to chill around with ppl who you have lost trust with. Once the trust is gone, it's just so hard to get it back. So don't bother asking some of my friends if they'd prefer old or new friends. -.-! Old but rusty for what? Old but not trustworthy for what? Ehhh, now I realised this Mama guy actually have mouth worse than a grl. Stop living in denial okay? Your supporters still love you.

Try harder to brainwash all this people around me. Because they know I'm in the right &they got a functioning brain to at least think who to side. I obviously, unlike some creatures on this Earth, have a clear conscience.

Okay class is done. Let's go! I've got myself a heavy eyelid. Sheeesh.

I'm game right after it started. Xoxo.

Who want free hugs? I'm giving them away.

2010-04-27T05:53:00.009+08:00

At times like this, I just wish I'm still a small kid. With no problems or so. I miss being the happy-go-lucky grl. But eversince time is invented, we humans have to grow with it. As much as we want to stay &be a kid, we can't. But right now, I just wish I am. Can I plssss? Everyone thought I'm the carefree lady, so happy just like that with no problems attached. But no. Been caught up with so many problems. I'm so naive. Believing people's word. Falling into their traps. Being so nice &giving in to them. At times, I just hate myself for not being able to be selfish. By putting other people's feeling before me. People kept on saying they've got my back &so &so. But they ended up leaving.

Tonight's been a hell of a crazy night. A bad one, that is. It's when I realised that I've lost some people who I've always looked up to as a brother. But I guess they ain't no brother anymore.

I was admitted thanks to you. I was weak thanks to you. I have to depend on other people thanks to you. I've to go through the pain when they insert needles into my body thanks to you. People tend to sympathise me thanks to you. I was crippled thanks to you. I was being called a handicapped thanks to you. I've got myself an ugly leg thanks to you. I cry every single time I look at this knee thanks to you. I can't even get my Barbie thanks to you. I've to use up my buckaroos I've planned to use on Barbie thanks to you. I can't even walk up &down the stairs properly thanks to you. I was being laughed at thanks to you. I have to lie to every single being I'm close to thanks to you. I have to hate myself everytime I lie to people when they ask for the cause of accident thanks to you. I got Mummy upset thanks to you. I didn't get to help Mummy, instead, I ended up creating more troubles for her, thanks to you.

All those mentioned above, was all thanks to you after today. Before that, I was so nice to you, FUCKING NICE, looking up to you as a brother, &to not even blame you. Instead I blame it on my fate. Why? Because I can't be selfish.

But when I found out the ugly truth, you running away, just to avoid me &being mad at me. I got pissed. KEPALE PUNDEK PEH KELING. Salah aku pe suar motor kau skid?! Ninabu. Kau yg nk baring sngt kan palabutoh?! Mak kau peh datok peh nenek moyang peh arwah kucing peh bapak ar suar. PSL KAU DGN KETURUNAN KELING KAU LAA KAU BOBAL PUN BELIT-BELIT SUARRRRR. No wonder the team is just of a name. Mmg dari siang, I've got the feeling it just won't work. But thanks to you too, I'm glad I found babygie, brothers like Wan, Qif &Meimei to be around. Who still got my back. I hope I'd still have them for long.

&you, I'm too ashamed to call you a brother too. I know it's not nice for grls to be vulgar. But hello, aku yg tanggung dosa aku pah! NOT YOU OR YOUR MOTHERFUCKING UNCLE'S MOUTH. So why bother be mad about your grlf being close to me. Sejahat-jahat aku, at least I know my limits. I don't go around fucking people. It's just my mouth. Sekuat-kuat maner ugama kau pun, tk berguna laa pukimak if you're hitting a grl. BODOH NAK MAMPOS. MAK BPK KAU PEH DATOK MOYANG PEH KAKAK PEH JIRAN PEH MAKCIK KAU PEH LAKI TK AJAR PE SUNDAL? Dayus bodoh, dayus.

Okay sorry. I'm too mad alr. That's why the vulgarities. I'm too mad to even sleep. I'm to mad that I can't stop crying.

Now tell me who are my precious few. Xoxo.

&I took the courage to suffer.

2010-04-20T00:34:00.005+08:00

It was nothing but a quick thing kids games, kiss chase, just a quick fling.
Now I'm hoping you never go missing.
Now I'm telling you, you can hold this ring, watch how it glistens.

It was done as quick as the wind blows.
Didn't think I would ever be involved.
So I even wrote a song called "Don't Go".
Now it's just you &me on a love row.

Dappy like dino us two tip toes duck dive get low
Ans now I care less about who knows.
Now we're deep in way past intro Dappy explain yo.

See never did I think a boy like me would be in need.
When all I really wanted was to have some fun.
Now I'm losing my head, I'm telling you one thing.
You're number One.

See I don't understand how you're number one.
When it was just a fling before now, you're the one.
See all I did was blink twice, from my homie to my only,
number one.

It was all now never planned no after.
It was like games jokes laughter.
Live for the moment, left it all open.
Now I'm in deep, flames, lava, breath, karma.

&now I'm stating, see I never saw this in my daydream.
It's really you that I'm fully rating.
&the days here no more waiting.

Pay it all wise to the smart man raised him.
I was so hurt, pain, aching,
on the wrong path then a good grl saed him.
That's why I'm letting man know she's amazing.

See never did I think a boy like me would be in need.
When all I really wanted was to have some fun.
Now I'm losing my head, I'm telling you one thing.
You're number One.

See I don't understand how you're number one.
When it was just a fling before now, you're the one.
See all I did was blink twice, from my homie to my only,
number one.

You lift me off the ground.
I always want you around.
I ain't gonna let nothing get in the way.
I'll never let nothing get in the way.

Yo, I ain't never gonna let nothing get in the way.
You play your cards all right, you're an Ace.
You make my nights so bright, you're my days.
You took me out of the maze,
You are number one.

See I don't understand how you're number one.
When it was just a fling before now, you're the one.
See all I did was blink twice, from my homie to my only,
number one.

You lift me off the ground.
I always want you around.
I ain't gonna let nothing get in the way.
I'll never let nothing get in the way.

Number one in the race, you're a leader.
Grl, you're out of this world, I can't see you.
&now you got a place in my heart.
It's funny how you actually went.
From my homie to my only,
Number one.

It's the lyrics to Number One. &I swear I'm stuck to it. Listening it on replay always make rmb the past with JS. But no, I ain't missing. If he could be happy out there, so can I. &right now, I'm happy just by having my friends around me. Sayang sama you alllllll.

Okay, I'm schooling tmr. So it's about time I head to sleep. Mornightsssss!

A whole wall of them just like you, right here, right now. Xoxo.