The next time my name rolls out of your mouth, choke on it asshole.

I never thought I'd say this, but I guess, I'm missing someone. TSK! IKRRRR. Somehow, I feel like by having that evil thoughts in my mind tells me that I'm still not over you. But insya'allah, I'll be stronger than I am to erase that part out of my mind. &I think I can. It's been what? 1 month since I haven't heard anything. But it felt like a year eh. Haiya! I really hate this part right here.





I know time will do its part. To help me out here. In a month's time, I'll hope you will be the stranger I never met. Not the person I want to hate. Seriously, I think Eri's right. Hating you just means I'm not over things. You were the reason, I hid it deep down that I think if I were some other people, it'll be hard to impress me. You were the reason, I never wished to entertain the other rascals. You were the reason, I'm sick &tired of your kind. You were the reason, I looked down on your species. You were the reason, the others got hurt. I never did want to hurt anyone yknowwww. TSK! How I wish things was so much easier now.





I used to have a feeling. The feeling when you wanted something that yknow you couldn't, or should I say, shouldn't have. &when it grows bigger making you realise that you really, really, &I mean really shouldn't have it, the more you wanted it to be yours. It makes me feel like one sadistic lady. But when the day comes. The day when things were so close to perfect happiness, all that you ever wished for, you were so elated. But sadly to say, it was for a temporary moment.

I was glad it was for a moment. But can't I just have it a lifetime. TSK! On a second thought, I'm thankful you were one of my mistake. Life's so contradicting. Always.

I suppose life's really a bitch. Because if it was a slut, it'll be easier.

On a procrastination pink note, this was on the 14th. IKRRR! 2 weeks overdue. I think I should really stop procrastinating stuffs. Because it is bad for health. Haha. Okay, tkder link. &when I mean health, I mean my memorylaa! It gets on my nerves remembering which date this was on. Lucky for me, I rmbered it was Mummy's brthday.

Okay, let's do some sidetracking abit. It was Mummy's brthday &I planned to get home before midnight just in time to wish her. Butttt, I bumped into Mike. Not literally bumped though. He saw me &called me to make sure I saw him. Cute pe itu budak pendek. Hahaha. Oh well, catched things up &I went home ard 2 plus.





Woke up the next morning by Ain. Shaking me rigorously to have some picture taking. Org nyer brthday, itu budak kecik yg sibuk-sibuk pilih flavor. HAHA!






Ar okay. This part, sorry ar gang. I prangai budak mok. Bangun tros makan. HAHA. But please ehh. I iz prangai lagi senonoh. Because I did some washing up. Durh, obviously. Not like those cinonehs from the foreign countries. Going out of their house the way they woke up. Bau last warning eh! Puh-lease. At least I looked okay whattttttt. Okay, self proclaim sungguh tak diperlu.





Okay, so the bracelet was my brthday present for her. I know it's something small. But it's the thoughts that count mah!

Okay, back on track. Washed up the proper way &got myself ready. &the plan was to just get my ass to JE straight. But Issy called me up. Luckily yknow! Or else, I'll be all alone waiting for the boys. Mampos! Tunggu dorang, duit boleh jatuh from the sky. Okay, sorry. Exaggerating. So yes, went to his bus stop instead of meeting Meimei. Because Meimei is forever late punyeeeee. Waited for that fat Buddha-like creature at Chinese Garden. This part, I was confused. Can wait at JE tknk tau. Mesti jumpe itu lahabao at CG. TSK!





Waited for him for nearly half an hour. Luckily, I got teman ar! In the end, he asked the two of us to proceed frst. Reason being, he was afraid Zack might blow up. Ohh, part Zack takut. Part aku marah tk takut. TSK! Met the other boys &headed to town.

I think that was our frst time going out on public. Eh, no. Second. Frst was raye. This part onwards, damn kekek laa! Cockup abes. But nvm.





Headed to Orchard Central frst. Because we thought of waiting for Meimei. As we were sightseeing in there, our stomachs worsen its condition. All those drilling, volvanic, Mother Katrina, Tsunami activites all can be found in my tummy. Of course laa, I only had a piece of cake pls! Only to know Meimei will only be joining us for the movie. Because he had to meet his friend.






Wahlao eh! Maner tk mengamuk, you tell me?! We waited for him, so we could all eat together. but we ended up being ditched. Wahhh, banyak laa sangat pengorbanan kiter, hampa yang kiter dapat balik. Cheyyy. Malay speaking alr. HAHA.





I tell you arrr. Lucily, it was my second time there. Because if it was my frst time, I'll be making myself seems like a fool like the others. Wait, not all. But most of them jakun giler babi laa! The rest, high maintenance. HAHA. Maintenance mesti mau jage eh bros. Sheeesh.






Sadly to hear, bbygie couldn't join us. Haiya! Because she was working till 9. &so we made plans without her. Only to find out at the later part of the day, she was joining us. Hahaha.

On a side note b, you shouldn't feel the way you feel okay? Let me tell you this. You're just assuming. No one bears hatred towards you. Yes, no one. No one wants you to leave. All of us, treated you like one. You cannot put the blame on yourself okay b? I used to say, some of the creatures on Earth who calls themselves as my friend, telling me they have my back &stuffs. But when one thing crops up, they just ignore it. &leave the friendship aside. I'm sure you're not like them. I'm sure, you'll put an effort to heal the wound from this friendship. Just so you know, I don't wish to lose you like any of the childish creatures. Love you.






See what I mean when I said they were jakun? It's even caught in the frames right! HAHA.








Went out for a puff &the boys were busy looking at the traffic. If I'm not wrong, there was this event where all the presidents come down to Singapore? Including Obama eh? Something big laa. But whatever it is. Them boys still got time to ask me snap on them tau! Kalah pompuan. Sikit-sikit ask me to snap them. Ha!






&OHHH! I found out that these boys too are very camera-ready. Except for Amy laa. I think he's the most reserved. The one with prangai grl-grl always being ready for camera will be Appy. HAHA. Itu budak sentiase I tell you.







Headed to Cineleisure. To check the movie timings. We sort of confirmed 2012 at 1220AM. But we were all busy thinking of the end result. The ifs &whatnots. In the end, we decided to get ourself satisfied with LJS. &think about the decision later. Hahaha. Tk ke cock up ini plan? TSK!





Once we were done, we decided to get our ass down to BB. Waited for the boys to get their pets. HAHAHA. Why pets? Because them boys, named their bikes over their pets. Oh, wait. Except for Issy laa. Bumblebee was his piyo-piyo's. HAHA. Zaman kematrepan laa katekan eh.






Imagine Man trying hard to get a perfect picture on the kemat's face. HAHA. The face Amy likes to put on when snapping of frames. Tk menjadi laa!

ARR MMG ARRRR! In the end, we went down to town only to eat. Besides the sightseeing of a shopping mall &to check the timings. Wasted laa sangat.




Once the pets have reached, we got our asses to town. Because Fer was pestering us to reach fast. The moment we reached, we realised there's no more slot for 1220 show. The next will be at 2. IF I'M NOT WRONG LAA! So, there was this one creature who initiated on Paranormal's Activity. MCM SEEYAL! Prangai isapppppppp.





Did I tell you, I saw the JS on that day? TSK! Because of that, the others thought I was sad or mad at them. Just because of the movie pick. WHERE GOT TIMEEEEEE. Smally the matter eh. Hahaa.





The movie was at 0115. If I'm not wrong. So we decided to chillax outside Cine. But the milipedes, or centipedes, or whatever you call those small tiny creatures with many legs, were conquering the place. That the boys were so afraid. Jumping up &down. Classic yknow the reaction!





So we ended up chillaxing at Taka. I was so down that I needed to cheer up. Reason being, I didn't want to spoil the atmosphere any worst. Lucky for them, I was down. If not ar, I don't think there'll be a group shot of all of us laa. &my cammie was at its worst stage. Low batt sia. TSK! But I think it loves me. Nvm, wait till the big day, then I want to buy a pink cammie. All to myself. No more sharing with big sistr. Haha.

















These 3 were so hyper that they wanted to get a jumpshot. HAHA. I tell you, no boys are like them one laa! Kalah pompuan, seriously. They were conquering the frames, instead of how grls always does. HAHA!




They're lucky it was me who snapped. Else, they won't get a perfect shot like this. Heh.





&LIKE THIS! Plus, my cammie was very weak alr. That everytime I took a shot, I'll have to switch it off &on again. HAIYA! Irritating betul. But the boys never stopped asking me to snap laa!




&Zack last warning eh! He can never smile while taking shots. TSK! Not fun oneeeeeee.







Arrr, this one kekek. Imagine Man. Imagine Meimei. Man tried to piggyback Meimei. &even tried to do a jumpshot. BUT HE ENDED UP JUMPING LIKE AS IF HE WANTED TO KILL AN ANT. That short a height. Of course laa! See the jamban on top of him. HAHAHA. Badan klau tk memboyak, tkpe laa jugak. Heh.



Soon, it was time for the movie. &although it was my second time watching it, I still cried &grabbed on Appy's arm. But it wsn't that bad as the frst time. I think Hadi kene lagi rabak. HAHA.

Okay dah bye. It's 0549, I nak tidur alrrrrr. Next update on lepak session with BBGs, explores with the Vs &the day when we grls were up to no good. HAHA. Seeee! I have too many to update on. Klau gambar sikit, tkpe laa jugak. TSK! =/

P/S: As you can see, I've removed my tagboard. Because it's getting dreary. Maybe if it gets even dull, I'll just do an intermission.

Trust me, I'll be stronger. Xoxo.

It starts with a smile, grows with a kiss &ends with a tear.

&I guess it gets buried right deep under. Some place where I myself can't find it. Or rather not just any stranger stalker could pull it out. I've had enough. No more grabbing it &leave. Just as when you please. I'm lucky enough, this missing piece can grow out of itself. This thing takes alot of time. Afterall, that's why there's a saying:

Time will heal.

Apparently, I think I'm not thanking the JS for everything. Because it was my decision to be one sadistic lady. &because of my decision, I've learnt my lesson now. &for that, I have people saying how ignorant I am. Pls laa. What do you expect? It gets on my nerve alr. You people kept on asking what's my name some old school shits. Hello? Blind ar?! Cannot read ar?! The name is all over your screen, for god's sake. Ohh! Go on saying. I've had alot of comments from you ppl.

FITB: heLLoOOoo
Baky: Tsup? Who you?
FITB: (The name shan't be revealed.) Mind be frends ?
Baky: How'd you get my email?
FITB: From tagged or facebook
Baky: Erh, okay. I don't have Tagged. Want make friends, but can't rmb the resources you took to get my email. -.-!
FITB: Frendster ?
Baky: Okay, Friendster? Berzaman sia tk masuk.
FITB: Facebook ?
Baky: Okay, whatever. Forget it.
FITB: Whats ya name ??
Baky: Erh, it's on the screen? Do I still need to tell?
FITB: Wahh uu so action orghh. Never mind denn.
Baky: Orhs, okay.
FITB: U attched?
Baky: No. Why? Even if I'm attached, does it concern you?
FITB: Hmm .. Takk attched tpai action semcm. Pelikk uhh.
Baky: -.-! It's not being action.
FITB: Abeh?

Wahh. Nih jantan sumpah last warning. Sukati mak bpk aku ar nk lyn kau mcmaner kan. Nk knl-knl abeh pick up line salah. Prangai isap siaaa. TSK!




OHHH! Did I tell you alot of people have commented that Maman &I looked like an item. Mampos! If that really happens, I think 2012 alr sia. HAHA. Eh brother? No way is that going to happen laa.




On a real side pinkish note, I met up with the creatures in the shots above. Rozzy told me that the plan was to watch 2012. &so, I just went for my UT without any second thoughts. Not like as if I'm going to skip the UT just for the movie laa. Okay, forget it. Idk what I'm trying to say here. But my point is, when I was done for UT, she told me they had a change of plan. Instead of 2012, we watched Paranormal Activity. Arrr, this part, Idk why I step terror nk tengok. Padahal weak-hearted nak mampos.







&did I mention that Alba was on her PMS mode? Jahanam sia prangai. PMS, need to affect everyone ar? Waduhh. Nvm, at least we could all just ignore. But pity Berok ar. HAHA.





&OHHH! How was the movie? Scary fuck can?! I was like begging to get out. Not begging literally. But I really wanted to get out of the cinema that badly laa. TSK. Memainkan perasaan ar itu movie.





I think y'all stalkers don't need to know this lady here. Because she can very well potray herself in her shots. Power pack dohhh. Just by the look of it, you can know how PMS-sy she was. Teruk ar weii.






&yes, I was crying out loud in the cinema. ONLY WHEN THE NIGHT TIME COMES ABOUT. The day time fucking draggy. Not counting the ending part during the day time. Okay, dah tknk bobal psl PA lagi. Seram yknwwwwww. Hair standing alr. TSK.

&OHH! Amy's TP today. Good luck bro. One more bike to the Vs' collection soon okay? Okay, it's 0423 alr. I shall go watch some movies. Because I iz scared of oversleeping. 2days alr yknow my ass haven't been in school this week. No good, no good. Must be a good student. HAHA.

It's getting harder to impress. Xoxo.

I don't see you the same no more.

I believe your non-existence in my life is like a blessing in disguise. Uh-huh. For that, I thank myself for making the move to tell you off. If I wasn't being encouraged by others to show my points across, then I guess uptil now, I'll be stuck in the middle. Also, I think I ought to thank Rikybby for teaching me.

You'll be fine. The first step to feel better is not to hate him. Hating him means you didn't let go of what had happen.

&yes, when I have no one to hate, especially the JS, I hated myself for making a decision to know you. I regretted every single thing. I no longer wish to rewind to the day when we frst met. Reason being, we're like strangers now. &I'm more than happy to have things this way.




OHH! This space have already started to accumulate its dust for a week. So I guess I should update laa hors.

Yg ini kekek. She took a picture of all of us, solo. &when she snapped her own, she was looking up. Both Rozzy &I looked at her &gave her the wtf look.

Alba: Ape? Abeh aku amek gmbr krg candid. Biler aku nyer turn pun, aku step candid laa. Kan nnti klaka.

Speaking of which, I think I'm sad. Cause Rikybby isn't close to me anymore. She is so busy with her life right now. Haiya. I think everyone is busy with their own life. &I think I should get back to being a workaholic. Before that, I should very well find myself a job. Idk why. But somehow there's something telling me that I cannot depend on anyone. Hidup mesti mau independent baby.

ANYBODY? I need a flexible part time job which allows me to work after school hours. Except for my weekends on Friday to Sunday. Apparently, before I get back to my work in Vivo, I had three weekend days. But now, all burn. HAIYA! But nvm, at least get money.




Somehow, I find life to be contradicting. Always. Schooling period, you want holidays. Long holidays, you get bored, &you want to go back to school. We can never be satisfied sia. &yes, why am I saying this? Because I want money. But I need to work. But work very boring that I don't wish to work. Get the frame? I want to earn easy money without working. CAN? Ar, meh sini isappppppp. Berangan je mau lebih sia!




Okay, if I'm not wrong, this was on Wednesday. Nih mak nenek asked me to wear the same shirt that we have. Had lunch with her ex classmates &Rozzy as well. Mcm dah lame kan tk nampak muke nih budak nise. (Note: Nise tau, bukan nice eh. HAHA. Nih laa. Mak suruh gi primary school blaja spelling betul-betul kan.)



&yes, apparently, I was with a hideous hungry monstr. Sorry b. Bukan mengutuk. Kau lawar. Cume part nih aje. Biler kau prangai hungry ghost festival. Sumpah buruk tau takkkkkk?! Ape nih? Memalukan name upper west siders ar lu.





Sial ar Alba. Rozzy asked her to smile properly. Because the frst frame, erh, something about her smile. Too plastic or something? Ar, damnit. STM. But oh well. My point is, the second shot, her smile was like, erh, Katie. The one in Paranormal Activity. Menyeramz pe?




I just realised when I was browsing through my picture which I uploaded in Facebook, most of the album will have twinB's face. I guesses we've been hanging out almost everyday after school together. I likeeeeee.





&yes, have I told you things between us have been coincidentally scary? Sumpah tk klaka. It's like similar, yet in an opposite way. &I mean alot yknowwwwwww. Still, I'm glad we both were strong enough to made it till this far without the existence of the JSes from our sides. We don't need any fucks to impress eh b.




Ar yes, did I tell you that Rozzy accidentally blurted out MM's surprise for me? That was on one of the day from last week when we bumped with each other in Mcd. Whatever the day is, still, the point is, the surprise ain't a surprise.

Baky: Eh, kau dgn Hadi aje?
Rozzy: Ar.
Baky: Aik, tadi ckp nk tros balik. Mcm-mcm ar kau.
Rozzy: Lapar dokk.
Baky: Yg lain maner?
Rozzy: Blablabla. (telling me where the others were at.) MM gi amek lesen motor.
Baky: APE?!
Rozzy: Oh kau tk tau eh?
Baky: Wtv.
***
(suddenly MM called, talking to Rozzy.)
Baky: Ape dier nak?
Rozzy: Shit. Part dier amek lesen motor, is meant to be a surprise for you.
Baky: Sbr, the thing is, mcmaner dier tau?
Rozzy: Entah?
Baky: Sialar. Surprise eh?! Dier nk surprise aku ke nk menyakitkan hati aku sial? Pukimak ar sial. Abeh ape? Present untuk brthday aku? Biler dier pass TP, dier boleh bagi license dier kat aku ar kirekan? Sial.

Bikin gua panas aje. &we were busy talking behind her back. Menyumpah tu anak amek practical sia. No wonder asyik fail aje. HAHA. Beli tayar extra hoy. Mampos, tayar tu inside joke eh.





&I told Rozzy whatever fucks, just say Idk laa. But some creature just have to tell her that I knew about it alr. Alamak. Lagi satu bikin darah gua up ar sial. Kau dah tk rapat dgn aku, buat hal tk rapat ar pukimak.

MM: B, you know alr kan?
Baky: Tau ape?!
MM: Rozzy told you alr kan?
Baky: APE SIAL ROZZY BILANG AKU?
MM: You know alr kan?
Baky: Puki laa. Aku tk tau apape.
MM: You know say you know laa. Eri told me alr.
Baky: AR AR. Aku dah tau. Kau amek lesen motor. Abeh asl eh klau aku tau?
MM: It was meant to be a surprise for you.
Baky: Ar, okay. Abeh? Kau nak aku happy psl surprise nih? Kau step aku tk tau apape laa. Biler brthday aku, nnti aku kasi kau satu besar peh sarcastic smile okay.

&somehow, some insider just told me she wanted to pass before my brthday. &wait for me to pass my license &get the bike together. AR MMG ARRR. Meh sini isappppppp. Aku belum lagi 18, kau dah fikir jauh-jauh.

MM: We go buy together laa.
Baky: Erh sembarang kau laa nak.
MM: Maner tau, beli sesame dapat discount. Buy 2 get 1 free.
Baky: Free ape nyer?
MM: Beli 2 bikes, dpt 1 free.
Baky: Ar, mmg ar! Lagi satu nk sumbat kat maner? Kat bwh rumah kau?! Kau fikir kedai kau pe? Kau beli extra tayar sudah. Cnfrm-cnfrm kau naik, tayar kau pancit Mok.

HAHAHA. I told the BBGs when we were at our usual block during second breakout. &they were all laughing at MM's thinking. Bengs sia.






&&oh! After school was to follow Alba &Berok to Mediacorp. Sumpah boring! The only thing that made me smile was Faizal Isa. As for Charles. Sumpah coincidental. Bnyk-bnyk lagu, you go sing that song?! WHY?! Knn. TSK!

The song has always been nice. But I hate it, thanks to the JS. Now now, how to stop hating that song? You tell me? I teared up listening to it manzxzx.





Okay laa bye. Nak tngk This Is It. It's alr 4AM. If I were to sleep now, I'll most probably end up not going to school again. TSK.

It's hidden deep inside till not anyone can grab &leave with it again. Xoxo.

Where'd the good times go?

People say it's not about waiting for the perfect time. But sometimes, you must dare to jump. Guess what? That jump just made us strangers to each other. No wait. From what I can see, more like enemies. Because strangers doesn't even acknowledge. But it was good enough I gave you the coldest sholders. The next time round, strangers. For shizzle truth.





Somehow, I believe the saying "One gone, more to come." Honestly, I never regretted taking the jump. Which, of course, as many of them knows, I'll be afraid of. If I didn't take the fucking jump, I think I won't even see the bigger picture. TSK. How irritating. Wouldn't it be better if I were to see the bigger picture in the frst place. Too bad, I was blind. Cinta itu bute, sampai merabe-rabe. HAHAHA.




Anyhoo, this was on Tuesday. When I decided to spent more time with Myra. &did every single thing with her in the library. HAHAHA. Uh-huh, did our nails, make up, movies, blogging. &even sleeping. Okay, the sleeping part for me only. Hahaha. Okay, I just made myself sound like as if I had to spent time with her because it's going to be my last days on Earth like that. Cheyyy. HAHA!




Both of us were supposed to meet Erifuckna after her UT. Spent time together like the old times, &take pictures. But surprisingly, she was all quiet when we were walking. Coincidentally bumped into Rozzy &Hadi in Mcd. OHHH YES. Eri ditched us for someone else. Disappointingly. Because if I'm not wrong, Myra &I weren't fine? Idk laa. But it's okay it's alright manzx. We still had our time with Rozzy &Hadi.







From this shot onwards, Myra &Rozzy were debating on why some pictures doesn't produce flashes when it comes to picture with Myra in. &so, Rozzy came up with a non-scientific theory that it'll only produce flash when Rozzy's face is in the frame.

WHICH IS WHY, THERE'S ALOT OF SELF SHOTS HERE. Sungguh tidak perlu laa dohh.






Okay, anyhoo. I'm here in the library with Rozzy &Maman. While they're completing their PP Project, I've been watching movie all day long. &yes, I watched 4bia. &I was busy screaming out loud. Ini laa orang ckp, nak step tk takut. Padahal takut. &even going to the toilet just scares the shit out of us. Pfft!

Both Rozzy &I wanted to visit the restroom. &I was so afraid that I asked her to go to the handicap instead. When she tried to open it, it was locked. &Idk why, I screamed &both of us ran away. Siak betul. Library pun memekak sia. So we ended up going to the normal one. When we were out of the toilet, Rozzy wanted to say something about the handicapped toilet. &next thing was, there was someone opening the door. APE LAGI? I cabut laa, of course!

Rozzy: Toilet kiter nyer lampu all automatic right?
Baky: Ar, ader movement sensor.
Rozzy: Tadi, off &lock kan?
Baky: OKAY. KAU DIAM!

Remember I said that Hadi is like Shaggy from the Scooby Doo gang? Arrr, this pictures just shows it all.







Alif Yakdush/Zahahaha &Hadi Ehbehseh Sez were there too. Like one gone, more to come. Get it? Hilang satu, ramai lagi turun. Bagus gini.







HAHAHA. Myra still couldn't accept the fact that when it comes to her, there won't be any flashes. But when it comes to Rozzy or myself, there will be. But little did they know that it's actually due to the actual lighting. HAHA.






Siak betul. Amek gmbr prangai budak gems sial. Mkn aje. Maner tk memboyak. &yes, I just realised, everyone who sees me, says that I've lose weight way too much &some even thinks I'm anorexic. WAHHH. Geram aje. &everytime I'm around Rozzy/Myra, I have this feeling that I'll always gain weight. MANER TAK?! Prangai every 1 hour lapar sia! TSK.





Soon, one by one went home. &I decided to slack with the LC boys. &then Zahahaha &Hadi sent me home. Uh-huh, mcm frst time gitu kan. Still, congrats ar Zaha for passing your TP &getting your bike. ITU GIGI TKMO PATAH LAGI SUDAH.





Okay, I'm off. To sleep. Rozzy tknk teman me go toilet. I iz scared. She is so bad. I want to kill her. For not accompanying me to the toilet. &because of that, I nk tidur. Okay, bye. Sorry I bobal mepek.

Being strangers were way better. Xoxo.

Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.

This was on god knows when. Some of the days which I wanted to erase off from my memory. The day that I realised I've been bad all this while. The day when I realised I've not been doing Mummy &Papa proud. The day when I was a bad friend. A worthless one. The day when I just wanted to be gone. The day when I was at my lowest peak. The floodgate of tears just won't stop itself from rolling down my cheeks. But someone thought me this phrase. I slept with the problem I had &I was fine the next day.




Okay, enough on that. Have you seen my harddisk? It's full of bedazzles. OH. &this is just the front of it. There's still the back part of it. Heh. &everytime I took my harddisk out, there'll always be someeeeeee people commenting.

Im: Hoiii. Smue bende, ader crystal.
Alba: Ar, dekni mmg. Klau boleh smue bende dier nk crystalise.
Im: Ar kauuu. Ini klau ader motor, cnfrm tampal kat ferring.
Baky: Ar ehh. Dari jauh nnti krg boleh tau itu aku. HAHAHA.

Okay, enough on that. I'll do a quick update on this one, Then I'll be off to the toilet. To get my ass ready &meet the Vs later on.




I hanged around 805 with some of the BBGs. &when they left for home, I went to Myramay. At Banquet. &apparently, I didn't know there was supposed to be a gathering for her bestfs. &I just feel I shouldn't be there laa. Haiya! But nvm, the others were not up for my camera standards. So it was just me &Myra.








Sometimes, I wonder how I've changed into this worthless creature. Bringing problems, being like a jinx to everyone around me. Thinking about this, just made me tear up. But ytd was a history which I won't happen again. I'm motivated to live a new fresh one. So let's not brood over the matter.






Thankyou guys, for being there for me. Indirectly. For giving me words of boost. For giving me support which I need. Y'all know who you are. I need not say. &this shall be history. &shan't be brought up again. Until to when when.

Ar shitzx. This phrase is stuck every since the V boys started it. HAHAHA.






&yes, like I said, it was just Myra &I. Because the others just got back from school &looked so torn out. I wonder why everytime I go to school, I can never be that weak. Even when I didn't sleep the day before. Okay, sheeesh. Bobal kerek. TSK.









Uh-huh, uh-huh. Even Tina is bedazzled. It's got even more glamorous laa! HAHAA. Front &back. &ohh, Mummy just said that Mak Busu bought the same kind of phone as me. But it's in gold. Eeeew. Nothing beats Tina. Still the best laa. How on Earth can you get a good owner like me? HAHAHA. Okay, diam. I'm talking to Tina. Heh.






All this was taken while waiting for Eyes to reach. Apparently she just got back from her work. &pity the Nadz &Myra. Reason being, they were so hugry yet they have to wait for Eyes to reach. So that they can eat together. Hahaha.





LAST BUT NOT LEASTTTTTT, HAPPY BRTHDAY MUMMY!



I know I haven't been a good daughter to you. I know we're no longer close like we used to, telling each other stuffs. I know you're mad at me for always coming home late. But you gave up, because there's no point saying. But Mummy, you should know this is just a passing phase. I'll stop coming home late. Sooner or later. Insya'allah, I'll stop on my smoking habits. I know you've tried your best given the fact that your daughters are giving you problems. But you must be strong okay. ILY. (L)

You're just another picture to burn, JS. Xoxo.

Ups &Downs.

Greatttt. Knowing that you're feeling what I've felt all this while, is great. How's the knock-and-leave moments felt? Awesome much? Skrang kau rase ape yang aku slalu rasekan biler kau muncul then hilang dlm hidup aku. Best kan cb?! I told you, karma will reach up to you sooner or later. But wait, this is only a small puny one. The next time it comes big time, say hello for me okay? Aku giler ke kau giler? Eeeh, just speaking about you made me infuriate. TSK! Regretting big timeeeeeeee.






So anyhoo, on our pinky Mr Brightside, I met bestfs on Sunday. I knew I'm so waking up late because I got home late the night before. Like I said, I went for Faten's brthday celebration. &yes, meeting time was 4. &I met them at 6. Tsk tsk.

&&OHHH! Did I tell you someeeeee creatures kept on wanting to hit the club for every brthdays there was? Menyirap darah aku dengar dohhhh. Like wtf. You knowing that I'm not near to the legal age yet, &you still have the guts to ask me along. Eh alamakkk. You're not near the young age limit, so pls. Start acting maturely. Seludup aku masuk laa. WTF! The one's risking is me. Not you.






&yes, I've been mising these two lovelies so much. The last we met was earlier this month when we bumped into each other in Civics. But no, that wasn't the proper meetup. Okay, so when was it? One of Saturdays. Yes, some time in August. (Note: I've to crack these braincells remembering when's Epul's brthday.) Uh-huh. That's how rarely we three meet up. But when it comes to Tiara &Nina, it's like almost everyday or even week.






We had so much to catch up. But obviously, Nina was busy about telling us how madly in love she was with Hafiz. It's been so long, I heard her being so happy when it comes to relationship. She was on it for so long, I tell youuu! I think if I were to see her everyday, &she keeps on telling me, I'd be tired of it, &slap her right in the face siaa. HAHAHA. But no laa. I iz nice. Plus, I iz happy to know she's happy with her new r/s.





&yes, I admit everyone of us are changing. But I hate the fact when Tiara changed, no one is like mad. But when it comes to me, nothing's good. Y'all telling me, the old me is gone &whatnots. But I know myself. It's still in me. I was quite disappointed. That y'all seeing me grow the most among all my friends, yet y'all still dk the truth.

But everything's fine now. Finally they got to know it's still in me. Like wowwww. Oh well, can't help it. Because they've been judging &I haven't been able to meet them for so long. So I'm cool with it. Plus, they were blinded with what people have been saying about me.







Uh-huh, uh-huh. I didn't know I was the talk of the town. Bestfs kept on hearing stuffs on what I've been doing everyday. &people have been talking about how much I've changed through out the years. But look, stalkers. Y'all are here &reading up on my personal space. No matter how an avid reader you are, that doesn't make you know who I am. &yes, thanks to creatures like y'all, they have been judging. So what if I spent my time outside doing nothing &just sitting down &talking to my friends? Aku lepak ader menyusahkan kau ke? I bet no. Aku main adek llaki or even abang krg ke? No. So why are y'all minding my business? TSK!






&somehow, Nina asked if I've ever had any misunderstandings with someeee kids from ITE Bishan. But fact is I don't remember. But I think, knowing she asked likewise, I bet there's people talking there. So whatever laa. I'm tired. Plus, it's your mouth. Buat ape aje laa yg krg nak okay?






OHHH! Myra is so cute laa.

Myra: Aikkk, jumpe bestf pun kene lawar-lawar ke?
Baky: Hello, it's at town. Tkkn nk pakai baju rumah turun town kan? Plus drg stay mane. So of course laa.
Myra: Eh, maner?
Baky: They stay North, I stay West. -.-!
Myra: Ohhh. How I know. I don't google "Where does Baky's bestfs stay".

Smuenyer untuk dier, google. Mampos.






OMG! DID I TELL YOU I WATCHED PARANORMAL ACTIVITY YTD? &I TOTALLY FEEL BAD FOR HADI. HE WAS SEATING NEXT TO ME. &BRINGING ME DOWN, DUE TO THE FACT THAT I WAS CRYING. YET, I MADE NAIL MARKS ON HIS ARMS. OF COURSE LAA! I WAS SO SCARED, I GRABBED HIS ARM SO HARD. &IN ADDITION, I GREW MY NAILS, SO THE MARKS WERE QUITE REDDISH. HEH. I'M SO SORRY. :/





Okay, back to Sunday. We had our time at the riverside. &they decided to head down to Mcd. For their fluffy. &that's when all the laughters we had, all the fun we had turned into serious talkings. Turned into tears.






Uh-huh, the day was filled with laughter &cries. I told them what I've been going through lately which have been making me down. &I wish I was stronger. But it feels good letting it out, &having your friends comfort you. &yes, this was when they told me, I've changed drastically &they felt being labelled.

I'm sorry babies for making you guys feel that day. But pls don't. Because it's me. I've got too many friends, that I just like categorising them. &no, this groups aren't according to hierarchy. It's just that sometimes, when I blogged, I don't feel like typing the names down. Because there'll be too many. So, I just like the way I group them. Plus, I won't mix up people with common names.






Oh no. I just got news from Meimei that Alep just lose somebody. Innalillah. Hopefully, my tangkes is fine. I'm sorry but I can't visit you. Because I'm working. I'd want to come, but if I were to visit, I'll be troubling Anne. &I don't want to bother her at all. I'm very sorry. If there's still time, I'll come visit you at night okay?



You guys have been there to watch me grow. Yes, you know who I am. So pls, don't let any negative thoughts come to you anymore. No matter how long we haven't meet, no matter how far we stay, even though I don't contact you guys, that doesn't mean you guys are not missed. That doesn't mean, I've forgotten ytwo. Y'all still my bestfs. Okay?







&yes, I'm quite shocked to hear about the bitch we all know. Well, at least I'm not that close to her. That's the good thing. But I iz sad, my bestfs are being treated likewise. Bodoh peh pompuan. Desperate pah?! TSK!











&&OHHH! YES YESSS. That Sunday made me realise that Tiara changed so much laa. These two have been telling me how drastic I've changed &stufss. Ever since the start of secondary school days. &knowing I smokes, she threw one box of mine away into the bay. Uh-huh, uh-huh. We were at the riverside, Esplanade. &she just snatched it away from me &threw it. ALAMAKKKKK. Klau nak ikutkan hati, nak aje sepak muke dier. Then campak kat laut. But no, I didn't laa. I was just down laa. BUT NOW ARRRRR. Knowing she smokes too, makes me mad laa! Geram aje. But nvm, you owe me one bitch.







Went out for some puffs. &that's when we had another tearing up session. I realised growing up is never easy. How I wish we were still young, primary school aged. Where all our clothes are being taken care by our parents. We don't have to worry about extra buckaroos. We weren't afraid of losing friends. Because we were so childish back then. Everything was clear cut for me back then. But nowwww, everyone's a confused kid. As time pass by, as we grow up, we've been making loads &loads of mistakes.





Things were easier back then. I swear. We were really under our parental concerns, &we were just living a carefree life. No worries, no whatnots. Noww, problems keeps on coming up at us, attacking us non-stop hit max. I wish I can be stronger than what I am now. I wish I can turn back time. I wish things would be easier now.

I wish, I wish. BANYAK LAA BERANGAN AKU. Tsk tsk.






Eh wow. I just realised I'm up so early. Thanks to Mummy. I think arrr, she's getting older that she forgot that I told her I'm working later instead of schooling. TSK! I could have another 2 hours of sleep eh! SEDZ PE! Now cannot get back to sleep alr.







TK GLAM PE NINA AMEKKAN. HAHAHA.






Okay, I shall try to get an hour sleep. But I iz scared of oversleeping. Let's catch a movie instead. HAHA.

Karma's a hit baby. Xoxo.

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